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silentvoice
Member
- Nov 23, 2019
- 52
Lately I have been trying to keep myself afloat by surrounding myself with positive things and hobbies in an effort to recover. It's really, REALLY hard. Especially when the idea of suicide keeps looming in the back of your brain, reminding you what a failure and how irreparably fucked you are. I honestly don't know if living is right for me, considering I also can't function in society due to a lack of social skills or the fact that, because of a vocal condition, it is hard to talk to other people in the first place. I cannot afford a doctor that can help me and I can't keep living off my parents because of my conscience telling me to stop being a parasite. If I cannot figure this out, I might as well just end it here.