She is again teacher. She is closer than the last teacher considering where she lives. I have met her on a certain app where frustrated men mocked me for my post. But several women were interested and texted me. One of them told me instantly she has no interest in dating a college student. With the second one I am texting so freaking much since yesterday. Today a third woman wanted to start texting with me because she liked my post (the post men mocked me for). And I told her I have a guilty conscience texting with her because I feel like it gets serious with the second woman. But this is also only one reason. I feel like I simply don't have the capacity anymore. It is so hot. I sleep so bad because of the heat. I think strategically that's a mistake. The disappointment just will hit harder. But really. I cannot text more. I am addicted to texting but it gets crazy. I hope she does not have borderline (Again) This would be really insane statistically. I might be paranoid though. But two of the three last women I dated had borderline. And I suspected it in the third one. I am really scared to become psychotic. I tend to become paranoid when I meet new women. It is important to postpone it as long as possible. Many are pretty scared witnessing me becoming paranoid.
Many things remind me of the last teacher I dated. There are some similarities. But please don't become psychotic about that. I think we match pretty well thus far. Don't get your hopes up too high. If I become psychotic and ruin it I will be pretty suicidal. She wants to phone with me someday. I will take a benzo beforehand. When I phoned the last time with the other teacher I dated I got really really paranoid.
I text with another person too. But mostly about mental health. And I don't even know the gender of that person.
It is so fucking hot where I live. It is a real pain in the ass.
I will update this thread probably. And vent about my suicidality if I fuck it up. This will break me fully.
Many things remind me of the last teacher I dated. There are some similarities. But please don't become psychotic about that. I think we match pretty well thus far. Don't get your hopes up too high. If I become psychotic and ruin it I will be pretty suicidal. She wants to phone with me someday. I will take a benzo beforehand. When I phoned the last time with the other teacher I dated I got really really paranoid.
I text with another person too. But mostly about mental health. And I don't even know the gender of that person.
It is so fucking hot where I live. It is a real pain in the ass.
I will update this thread probably. And vent about my suicidality if I fuck it up. This will break me fully.
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