Nonno_Eek
I don't understand human behavior
- Oct 21, 2024
- 7
Man... I don't know why but my fucking neurons just activated when they said that we can participate for a military training program in my college.
I don't really have any aspiration in life. You know the feeling that if you stop moving, you'll go insane? That's what's happening to me. I think if I just stopped I'll lose it.
It scares me. If I stop in college without having any place to go or If I graduated and cannot find a job, I think I'll go mad. So If I, somewhat, pass this military training. I could have an assurance that even if I cannot find a job, I can be a soldier just to fill this void in me. I also signed up because of the scholarship. Gotta need that money to buy myself a laptop. It's hard to study with a broken phone and your professor will tell you it's not their issue that you cannot turned in an assignment. Be in my position, go ahead have a broken phone and a choppy signal and the fucking deadline is on the same day.
I wish I'm doing right decision and not wasting time and money. I really want that allowance and the summer camp that they will teach you how to handle a real gun.
I don't really have any aspiration in life. You know the feeling that if you stop moving, you'll go insane? That's what's happening to me. I think if I just stopped I'll lose it.
It scares me. If I stop in college without having any place to go or If I graduated and cannot find a job, I think I'll go mad. So If I, somewhat, pass this military training. I could have an assurance that even if I cannot find a job, I can be a soldier just to fill this void in me. I also signed up because of the scholarship. Gotta need that money to buy myself a laptop. It's hard to study with a broken phone and your professor will tell you it's not their issue that you cannot turned in an assignment. Be in my position, go ahead have a broken phone and a choppy signal and the fucking deadline is on the same day.
I wish I'm doing right decision and not wasting time and money. I really want that allowance and the summer camp that they will teach you how to handle a real gun.
