Story I hugged my gf and felt exstasy first time in my life

[Hans Voralberg]

So i met my girlfriend after few months we spent separated because of e learning and distance between our town's. We are both very shy and we both expierienced big trauma in past on sexual and building relationship levels. We hugged and it felt great. We had so small amount of time to talk to each other, but it was so great to see her and then we hugged for goodbaye and oh boy. I have partial cerebral palsy so every touch given to me is much stronger for me than for normal person in sensations and i literally felt something like electric sparks going from her hands deep inside my spine and slowly up to the brain. It was like firework. It was so strong. I never felt such euphoria before. It felt like orgasm but only with my nerve system. Just wow. I love her so much and she know it but i never thought that i will be able to feel something like that. Did anyone felt something like that? She don't like verbal tenderness probably because of a trauma she expierienced because her ex. So it is hard even say her simple i love you but i hope we overcome our deamons at last. I'm so gratefull that i have her in my life. She have very low self esteem and probably because of it can't fully open

I have a very difficult question to sexual abuse survivors on this site. Do you have problems when someone say to you i love you. I know she probably never will say these words toward me and i'm fully ok with this. We are together and support each other only that matters for me. She is my angel even if she don't believe me that she is most preacious person in the world for me.

 

[rationaltake]

This is wonderful. Thank you for posting. I have experienced something similar and it is ecstacy.

Yes. It is difficult to hear somebody say I love you. Or to say it. I experienced extreme abuse when young.

But somebody who loves me tells me so and I am learning to accept and appreciate it.

Sadly I have DID and can't see myself recovering.

Keep telling her and showing her how much she means to you. I hope you both overcome your demons.

Take care

 

[Sherri]

Love happy love stories. Havent reach that stage that with my current bf, but I know what you talking about. All the best for you 2 love birds.

 

[Hans Voralberg]

So it's time to small update. My and my girlfriend schedules are very overload but we found one day during we can regulary meet. Just imagine. I will be hugged by her on friday once a week.Once a week I will expierience these shoot of oxitocine to my brain. Maybe i will not be suicidal anymore thanks to her. We will talk in real life, hug, and give closenes to each other regulary. I'm so happy.

 

[rationaltake]

That's wonderful. Pleased about that.

 

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Treasure those moments, they are truly the best of what life is made of. I'm happy for you.

 

[LittleJem]

Thank you for sharing this. I find it difficult to accept anyone loves me, and my family are critical and abusive. So maybe this is why...

I'm happy you've found happiness with your girlfriend!!!