sevennn
Wizard
- Sep 11, 2024
- 609
i just ordered sodium nitrite, idk where to store it when it gets here or how to even pick it up. i sort of ordered it impulsively because i was feeling so awful and like i can't take a second longer anymore in my body. moms gone for the day and i wanted to hang myself so bad. i guess she's gonna come back soon so the moment is gone. but if i did it fast i would've been gone already. i don't think i'm gonna go to a hotel or anything. i'll probably just drink SN in my apartment if everyone goes away one day. like maybe if they go away for a couple days. for whatever reason. i wish the packaging was small. it's 2 kg so it's like.. wtf. how am i even meant to bring all that home. yikes. idk. i might not even pick it up. we'll see. if i lived alone all this shit would've been so easy. ugh.