Story I just ruined everything

[19andOverdue]

I told all my friends and screamed at my family that I'm going to shoot myself and I'm sorry for all the burdens I put on them my whole life. My family hates me now and will never trust me again. I think I've gone too far this time, should I finally follow through and actually kill myself like I promised I would?

 

[lostmyacc]

It's never wise to tell people this even if you really mean it. Things can spiral they could take guns off you and lock you up in hospital before you can even chamber a round. I've heard horror stories throughout the years on this forum.
Please be careful i know things rough for you right now but this may have them on alert.

 

[Manaaja]

Notice how the family doesn't think "Geez, we must be a pretty awful family if one of us screams at us that they want to kill themselves, we should try and be better and more supportive people, maybe they would be less suicidal"? Yeah.

What I've learnt of humans is that they often forget everything quickly. Give it two weeks and they have probably forgotten everything. Someone gave a good tip "Everyone remembers all the embarrassing stuff they've done, but usually no one remembers any embarrassing stuff others have done."

I have told lots of people billions of times that I want to kill myself and they still act as if it was some new fashion statement. They are either surprised as if it was a new thing, or they ignore me, or they say "if you really wanted to die, you'd have died already".

Remember, you aren't a burden. It's not like you forced your parents to have heterosex and breed and give birth to you.

 

[Seeking_Peace]

Family never look at their relative the same after telling them. I'm glad I've never told them. Despite, what people say, it's best to keep it to yourself or only share with like-minded individuals.

 

[Someone123]

I told all my friends and screamed at my family that I'm going to shoot myself and I'm sorry for all the burdens I put on them my whole life. My family hates me now and will never trust me again. I think I've gone too far this time, should I finally follow through and actually kill myself like I promised I would?

I wouldn't ctb for that reason alone, if there is some hope that things could get better taht is worth considering. I wish they would understand that you're just in so much pain that you really need some help as soon as possible to lessen this pain.

 

[CrazyHorse]

What is heterosex?
I mean, what other kind is there to make a baby?
I always learned about sexual intercourse between the .ale and a female of a species

 

[chocolatebar]

I told all my friends and screamed at my family that I'm going to shoot myself and I'm sorry for all the burdens I put on them my whole life. My family hates me now and will never trust me again. I think I've gone too far this time, should I finally follow through and actually kill myself like I promised I would?

You never have to make your choices based on what people think. The feeling of screwing up everything is intense, but, like others mentioned, you will be surprised by how people forget things quickly.

Can you go out for a day or engage into something to fully immerse yourself? It helps you and the other people to forget about it.

I remember telling similar things to y family. It was horrible in the following days, but now, I think I know them a little better and what they wanted to do to me. I could see them under their masks and I will never forget it.

 

[Someone123]

What is heterosex?
I mean, what other kind is there to make a baby?
I always learned about sexual intercourse between the .ale and a female of a species

You can make a baby through the ears if you know what you're doing.

 

[FuneralCry]

I feel like only you know if you should ctb as it is your life and your decision after all. That sounds like such an awful and stressful situation to be in, I personally never see it as a good idea to tell people about wanting to ctb. After all we live in a world where our right to die is not respected. I wish you relief from your suffering in whatever option you choose.