Story I Just Survived A Partial Hanging

[Kobusu]

I need to share this somewhere. I can't tell my ex because she's done with me and I can't tell my friends because they'll call the cops. So I'll post it here. I just survived partially hanging myself. It took a good half hour to get the courage to lean down on my knees and do it. I remember counting to ten and blacking out somewhere around seven.

When I woke up on the floor I initially didn't remember anything but after an hour or so I remember it all. I remember being unconscious and my SI kicking in and me shaking and kicking and my body kicking and fighting and slamming. I wasn't even conscious for it, but it still happened.

I don't think there's any message I'm trying to share in this, I just figured this was the best place to talk about it. My neck is bruised from the noose being so tight and my SI kicking in and trying to rip it off. It was a horrible experience yet all I could do when i came-to was scream and cry because I'm still here. Still, I can't really talk I can only scream. Every time I try to speak it just comes out as a scream.

Maybe I did it wrong. I intend to try again tomorrow. If anyone has questions I'd be happy to answer.

 

[Ta555]

Sorry you went through all that :( I don't mean to be a downer but partial hanging has a high chance of not working exactly because of what you describe, it's very easy to abort either while conscious or unconscious so please keep that in mind. This is probably a good thing and people who regret it can back out.

 

[Kobusu]

Sorry you went through all that :( I don't mean to be a downer but partial hanging has a high chance of not working exactly because of what you describe, it's very easy to abort either while conscious or unconscious so please keep that in mind. This is probably a good thing and people who regret it can back out.

Yeah I can see now how easy it is to not work. It's unfortunate because it was the best way I could think of currently. I agree that it's probably great for people who end up reconsidering or regretting, but unfortunately in my case that wasn't what happened.

I suppose all I can do is try again.

 

[Someone123]

I need to share this somewhere. I can't tell my ex because she's done with me and I can't tell my friends because they'll call the cops. So I'll post it here. I just survived partially hanging myself. It took a good half hour to get the courage to lean down on my knees and do it. I remember counting to ten and blacking out somewhere around seven.

When I woke up on the floor I initially didn't remember anything but after an hour or so I remember it all. I remember being unconscious and my SI kicking in and me shaking and kicking and my body kicking and fighting and slamming. I wasn't even conscious for it, but it still happened.

I don't think there's any message I'm trying to share in this, I just figured this was the best place to talk about it. My neck is bruised from the noose being so tight and my SI kicking in and trying to rip it off. It was a horrible experience yet all I could do when i came-to was scream and cry because I'm still here. Still, I can't really talk I can only scream. Every time I try to speak it just comes out as a scream.

Maybe I did it wrong. I intend to try again tomorrow. If anyone has questions I'd be happy to answer.

When it comes to hanging, as the body loses oxygen the arms and legs will move around a lot as the body fights to get oxygen so that the muscles, etc. don't die. Also, a nurse who has seen several people after they have died by hanging said there are always lots of marks on the neck as the body tries to get the noose off even when unconscious. If you search on this site by partial you will find many recent attempts at partial and all of them have failed that I have seen. People say they stand up, etc. Based on the posts I have seen this method almost never works. Certain celebrities, for example Robin WIlliams and Kate Spade, are said to have used this method, and how they got it to work I don't know, but even in the past couple of weeks there have been a lot of posts about partial failing and I haven't seen any where it worked.

 

[Kobusu]

When it comes to hanging, as the body loses oxygen the arms and legs will move around a lot as the body fights to get oxygen so that the muscles, etc. don't die. Also, a nurse who has seen several people after they have died by hanging said there are always lots of marks on the neck as the body tries to get the noose off even when unconscious. If you search on this site by partial you will find many recent attempts at partial and all of them have failed that I have seen. People say they stand up, etc. Based on the posts I have seen this method almost never works. Certain celebrities, for example Robin WIlliams and Kate Spade, are said to have used this method, and how they got it to work I don't know, but even in the past couple of weeks there have been a lot of posts about partial failing and I haven't seen any where it worked.

Yeah I'm thinking partial is not the way. I don't know if I'll do full next time or anything. I want to try and get SN or a firearm if I can. The most I can do is share my story and suggest against partial. Even wanting to die more than anything, I was unable to stop my SI from stopping me.

 

[Ta555]

When it comes to hanging, as the body loses oxygen the arms and legs will move around a lot as the body fights to get oxygen so that the muscles, etc. don't die. Also, a nurse who has seen several people after they have died by hanging said there are always lots of marks on the neck as the body tries to get the noose off even when unconscious. If you search on this site by partial you will find many recent attempts at partial and all of them have failed that I have seen. People say they stand up, etc. Based on the posts I have seen this method almost never works. Certain celebrities, for example Robin WIlliams and Kate Spade, are said to have used this method, and how they got it to work I don't know, but even in the past couple of weeks there have been a lot of posts about partial failing and I haven't seen any where it worked.

The marks around the neck...I believe that people probably have marks around the neck to try get the rope off but I highly, highly doubt it that they do that while unconscious. You do not have any logical brain workings when you're unconscious and the movements when unconscious are spasms and posturing to like you said, get more oxygen. But deliberately trying to get a rope off or untie a knot while unconscious...I don't think that's the case. This is just my opinion though.

 

[Someone123]

Yeah I'm thinking partial is not the way. I don't know if I'll do full next time or anything. I want to try and get SN or a firearm if I can. The most I can do is share my story and suggest against partial. Even wanting to die more than anything, I was unable to stop my SI from stopping me.

The marks around the neck...I believe that people probably have marks around the neck to try get the rope off but I highly, highly doubt it that they do that while unconscious. You do not have any logical brain workings when you're unconscious and the movements when unconscious are spasms and posturing to like you said, get more oxygen. But deliberately trying to get a rope off or untie a knot while unconscious...I don't think that's the case. This is just my opinion though.

It's a little uncertain, and you may be right, but a nurses who reported on several of these cases said they all had lots of marks on their necks, and based on videos people seem to go unconscious pretty quickly, though maybe it is more like semi-conscious.

 

[willitpass]

i survived partial five years back because of that exact reason. the unconscious body will do anything to survive when in a situation like that. there is no way to avoid si when doing partial

 

[Ta555]

It's a little uncertain, and you may be right, but a nurses who reported on several of these cases said they all had lots of marks on their necks, and based on videos people seem to go unconscious pretty quickly, though maybe it is more like semi-conscious.

Is this nurse someone you know personally??

 

[FuneralCry]

It sounds awful what you have been through, of course ctb is very difficult as we are programmed to survive. We all deserve a peaceful exit, we should not have to resort to methods that could fail. Anyway I wish you the best with your plans, I hope you find the peace you are looking for.

 

[Ch92921]

I confused isnt partial hanging done by many successfully each year?

This old woman also did it?

 

[icecream]

Does anyone know if using rubber bands around your neck and taking pills to sleep and hopefully not wake up would work? Sorry to comment on this thread .. im new (but been lurking for months) and not sure how to start my own thread. Would really appreciate input.
And I meant to say using at least 50 rubber bands. There's a article online about a guy doing this in prison and it worked (without pills)

 

[Ch92921]

Does anyone know if using rubber bands around your neck and taking pills to sleep and hopefully not wake up would work? Sorry to comment on this thread .. im new (but been lurking for months) and not sure how to start my own thread. Would really appreciate input.

What not wake up? If you wake during partial hanging, then it is anyway failed.

 

[Ta555]

I confused isnt partial hanging done by many successfully each year?

This old woman also did it?

Of course it's possible and there are people who do succeed but it also has a high failure rate. Also, any method is going to work better for old people because their bodies are a lot more fragile. It's not the same for a young person with a more or less healthy body in its prime.

 

[Ch92921]

So partial hanging where you hang totally is far better methode?

 

[Ta555]

Does anyone know if using rubber bands around your neck and taking pills to sleep and hopefully not wake up would work? Sorry to comment on this thread .. im new (but been lurking for months) and not sure how to start my own thread. Would really appreciate input.
And I meant to say using at least 50 rubber bands. There's a article online about a guy doing this in prison and it worked (without pills)

Hi! There are many 'strange' methods that have worked for people. Like I read one about a man who basically duct taped his face and tied his hands to a radiator. The problem with these methods is that there's usually only one or two cases reported so there's no way to know the reliability of it. Like for example with full suspension hanging, thousands of people do it every year and many of them pass away so we know it's guaranteed to work if you have a good rope and anchor point because of so much evidence. With really out there methods no one can tell you whether it will work reliably or not because there's not enough data.

So partial hanging where you hang totally is far better methode?

When you hang completely with feet off the ground it is called full suspension hanging or full hanging. And yes, it has a much higher success rate if done correctly.

 

[icecream]

Hi! There are many 'strange' methods that have worked for people. Like I read one about a man who basically duct taped his face and tied his hands to a radiator. The problem with these methods is that there's usually only one or two cases reported so there's no way to know the reliability of it. Like for example with full suspension hanging, thousands of people do it every year and many of them pass away so we know it's guaranteed to work if you have a good rope and anchor point because of so much evidence. With really out there methods no one can tell you whether it will work reliably or not because there's not enough data.

When you hang completely with feet off the ground it is called full suspension hanging or full hanging. And yes, it has a much higher success rate if done correctly.

Thank you for responding! There was another woman who only used 4 bands. It's frustrating there's not enough data but even in theory it seems reliable enough to entertain. I have the equipment for night night method and ordered SN but not sure if it will be pure. Just juggling which method to go with

 

[Ta555]

Thank you for responding! There was another woman who only used 4 bands. It's frustrating there's not enough data but even in theory it seems reliable enough to entertain. I have the equipment for night night method and ordered SN but not sure if it will be pure. Just juggling which method to go with

Personally I wouldn't go with anything that hadn't really been tried and tested eg full suspension, drowning, exit bag, SN. I know sometimes people are desperate and resort to all sorts of strange methods but I'd rather know that what I'm doing has a history behind it.
Personally, taking a bunch of pills and taping a bag over my head and securing myself in a way that I can't remove the bag seems the best to me but there's nowhere I can secure myself in a way that guarantees I won't fall over or rub my head against something.
I have a romantic idea of drowning in the ocean too because I live in a country surrounded by ocean and I love the beach. I'd love to paddle out into the middle of nowhere, take a bunch of pills or SN and lower myself into the water and night night. That would be my favourite. But it's hard to find a secluded beach and get a kayak too.

 

[icecream]

Personally I wouldn't go with anything that hadn't really been tried and tested eg full suspension, drowning, exit bag, SN. I know sometimes people are desperate and resort to all sorts of strange methods but I'd rather know that what I'm doing has a history behind it.
Personally, taking a bunch of pills and taping a bag over my head and securing myself in a way that I can't remove the bag seems the best to me but there's nowhere I can secure myself in a way that guarantees I won't fall over or rub my head against something.
I have a romantic idea of drowning in the ocean too because I live in a country surrounded by ocean and I love the beach. I'd love to paddle out into the middle of nowhere, take a bunch of pills or SN and lower myself into the water and night night. That would be my favourite. But it's hard to find a secluded beach and get a kayak too.

I tried to take pills and then go into the ocean in the summer but I ended up passing out on land too soon! And now the ocean is way too cold or I would definitely go with drowning

 

[Ta555]

I tried to take pills and then go into the ocean in the summer but I ended up passing out on land too soon! And now the ocean is way too cold or I would definitely go with drowning

Oh no!! What pills did you take if you don't mind me asking?

 

[icecream]

Oh no!! What pills did you take if you don't mind me asking?

I took a bunch of antidepressants and Tylenol valiums and seroquel and I drank a lot of gin

 

[Ta555]

I took a bunch of antidepressants and Tylenol valiums and seroquel and I drank a lot of gin

Were you found or did you just come to by yourself eventually?

 

[icecream]

I was found and taken to pysch ward

 

[Ta555]

I was found and taken to pysch ward

Sorry to hear that :( I hope you find some peace, in whatever form that may be.

 

[icecream]

Sorry to hear that :( I hope you find some peace, in whatever form that may be.

Thank you

 

[Someone123]

Is this nurse someone you know personally??

No, it's a nurse that hear about online who has dealt with several suicides- I do believe her though, it's consistent with other things I have read.

 

[sandalphon]

The marks around the neck...I believe that people probably have marks around the neck to try get the rope off but I highly, highly doubt it that they do that while unconscious. You do not have any logical brain workings when you're unconscious and the movements when unconscious are spasms and posturing to like you said, get more oxygen. But deliberately trying to get a rope off or untie a knot while unconscious...I don't think that's the case. This is just my opinion though.

Of course it isn't. This member also said SN fails more than it succeeds, and now they're making the ridiculous claim that all recent attempts at partial in this forum failed. I would take whatever this person says with a grain of salt.

I mean -- "I heard it from some nurse online?" Can't get more believable than that.

 

[Someone123]

I confused isnt partial hanging done by many successfully each year?

All methods work sometimes, but keep in mind that in the U.S. in 2020 only 1 in 29 attempts resulted in ctb, so that is potentially 28 trips to the psych ward before ctb- obviously no one is going to be able to do that many because if it keeps happening the stays will get longer. Because the world population is so high all methods are successful many times each year. The question is what percent of the time do they work? You can't get exact statistics but you can get an idea based on what people report individually- for example, on this site.

Yeah I'm thinking partial is not the way. I don't know if I'll do full next time or anything. I want to try and get SN or a firearm if I can. The most I can do is share my story and suggest against partial. Even wanting to die more than anything, I was unable to stop my SI from stopping me.

For firearms, if you search of youtube by "failed gun suicide attempt" you will see a lot of videos showing why I would not want to do this method- I thin reviewing the videos here is really essential for anyone considering this method. It does work a high percentage of the time but for failed attempts it seems to have by far the worst possible results of any method I know of. Full suspension and SN are two methods I am considering and I am still trying to learn more about each method. I try to weight reliability of working, what happens if it fails, and how difficult it will be to do each method/ how much pain there may be.

 

[Kobusu]

All methods work sometimes, but keep in mind that in the U.S. in 2020 only 1 in 29 attempts resulted in ctb, so that is potentially 28 trips to the psych ward before ctb- obviously no one is going to be able to do that many because if it keeps happening the stays will get longer. Because the world population is so high all methods are successful many times each year. The question is what percent of the time do they work? You can't get exact statistics but you can get an idea based on what people report individually- for example, on this site.

For firearms, if you search of youtube by "failed gun suicide attempt" you will see a lot of videos showing why I would not want to do this method- I thin reviewing the videos here is really essential for anyone considering this method. It does work a high percentage of the time but for failed attempts it seems to have by far the worst possible results of any method I know of. Full suspension and SN are two methods I am considering and I am still trying to learn more about each method. I try to weight reliability of working, what happens if it fails, and how difficult it will be to do each method/ how much pain there may be.

Yeah, it can be pretty brutal. Thankfully I have enough experience with firearms to be confident that I'll aim properly. Of course, you never know, but it's one of my best options.

 

[Someone123]

Yeah, it can be pretty brutal. Thankfully I have enough experience with firearms to be confident that I'll aim properly. Of course, you never know, but it's one of my best options.

If I was confident with firearms it would be an option for me, too. It takes some research to decide on the type of bullet, the type of gun, where to point, etc. And of course where to fire the gun- it's rare, but sometimes people are prosecuted for firing where they shouldn't and prison has happened for some. I always thought that if I did this I would like to be on a hunting ground where it is legal to fire a gun if possible.

I need to share this somewhere. I can't tell my ex because she's done with me and I can't tell my friends because they'll call the cops. So I'll post it here. I just survived partially hanging myself. It took a good half hour to get the courage to lean down on my knees and do it. I remember counting to ten and blacking out somewhere around seven.

When I woke up on the floor I initially didn't remember anything but after an hour or so I remember it all. I remember being unconscious and my SI kicking in and me shaking and kicking and my body kicking and fighting and slamming. I wasn't even conscious for it, but it still happened.

I don't think there's any message I'm trying to share in this, I just figured this was the best place to talk about it. My neck is bruised from the noose being so tight and my SI kicking in and trying to rip it off. It was a horrible experience yet all I could do when i came-to was scream and cry because I'm still here. Still, I can't really talk I can only scream. Every time I try to speak it just comes out as a scream.

Maybe I did it wrong. I intend to try again tomorrow. If anyone has questions I'd be happy to answer.

I just did a search by prison hanging, and the top post on this site is interesting. It is from a former prison guard who dealt with a number of prison suicides, all of who died using a partial in a seated position. He said he has tried this 25 times himself, trying to sit exactly as they did and get the knot exactly as they did but he hasn't been able to get this to work for himself, and he doesn't know why it worked for them but not for him.