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yariousvamp

yariousvamp

Misanthrope vampire
Sep 8, 2024
63
I'm a lucid dreamer. And everytime I suddenly wake up I'm like "fuck here we go again"

The dream world is everything I want. I'm poor irl. In the dream world I can get anything I want without money. Even if some dream npcs get pissed at me. All I do is just summon money and give it to them. I can't do that irl. I'm forced to live in poverty.

In the dream world I can travel anywhere I want. Even countries that don't exist. I can go ANYWHERE. Forests. Museum. Basically anywhere. In reality I can't even afford to have to go on a vacation in a different city. And I'm from an Islamic third world hole where family are 10 times more strict. So even as a 20 years old grown ass woman. I barely have any freedom to go out. Even when I go out. My environment just reminds me of my poverty and shit life. Trash on the streets. People judging everything.

In the dream world I can eat whatever I want without worrying about whether the baked clipped his nails or not. Whether a child with pinworm infection touched this baguette or not. Just living in stress and panic to make sure I don't get any infections from food. It's honestly so fucking tiring

In the dream world I can practice all my hobbies that I want that I can't do irl simply because it's either unavailable in my country or too broke to afford it.

In the dream world I can talk to people and express myself however I want. Unlike reality where my crippling social anxiety makes me sweat and my heart beat so fast just because I have to send a voice message or call someone. I know it all sounds ridiculous

In the dream world I actually live. Not survive. I enjoy everything I do. Not just wasting my life behind a screen trying to survive

If it's not suicide. I really wanna get myself in a long coma and dream till I die.
 
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pandorasactor

pandorasactor

dead inside
Sep 23, 2024
120
Firstly, I'm sorry you are going through crap currently. I can understand wanting to escape and feeling like I'm a different character. I can't lucid dream as much as I was a kid but maladaptive dreaming is my coping mechanism. Know one can judge me, can create my ideal worlds, and have backstories to my spefically fantasy's (not sexual but more like I grow up in a loving world where people enjoy being a round me etc etc).

Thos affects my dreams to be more escaping when I sleep but I really just want to lucid dream again lol. Also i love if the inception dream maker thing was real, like I ain't leaving my place.
 
yariousvamp

yariousvamp

Misanthrope vampire
Sep 8, 2024
63
I rally just want to lucid dream again lol. Also i love if the inception dream maker thing was real, like I ain't leaving my place.
I wasn't born with the skill to lucid dream, i learned it to escape from this hole, I always make sure to keep a dream journal to write all my dreams in it, and count my fingers through out the day (as a reality check, since in dreams hands never look realistic, most of the time you'll either be missing fingers or have extra fingers)
Lucid dreaming is a skill that you can learn
 
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J&L383

Wizard
Jul 18, 2023
639
I'm a lucid dreamer. And everytime I suddenly wake up I'm like "fuck here we go again"

The dream world is everything I want. I'm poor irl. In the dream world I can get anything I want without money. Even if some dream npcs get pissed at me. All I do is just summon money and give it to them. I can't do that irl. I'm forced to live in poverty.

In the dream world I can travel anywhere I want. Even countries that don't exist. I can go ANYWHERE. Forests. Museum. Basically anywhere. In reality I can't even afford to have to go on a vacation in a different city. And I'm from an Islamic third world hole where family are 10 times more strict. So even as a 20 years old grown ass woman. I barely have any freedom to go out. Even when I go out. My environment just reminds me of my poverty and shit life. Trash on the streets. People judging everything.

In the dream world I can eat whatever I want without worrying about whether the baked clipped his nails or not. Whether a child with pinworm infection touched this baguette or not. Just living in stress and panic to make sure I don't get any infections from food. It's honestly so fucking tiring

In the dream world I can practice all my hobbies that I want that I can't do irl simply because it's either unavailable in my country or too broke to afford it.

In the dream world I can talk to people and express myself however I want. Unlike reality where my crippling social anxiety makes me sweat and my heart beat so fast just because I have to send a voice message or call someone. I know it all sounds ridiculous.
Absolutely not ridiculous! Although I'm in a totally different world from you, the United States (ugh, for what it's worth), my experience echos your remarks remarkably similar. I thought about that: in a coma do you dream? If so, sign me up! Sometimes I wonder if the dream is actually the true reality and if waking life is just a bad dream. My dreams are almost always better than what awaits when I have to resign myself to living yet another day. What I keep telling myself is, at least this won't last forever, whatever this is. 🤗
 
yariousvamp

yariousvamp

Misanthrope vampire
Sep 8, 2024
63
I think it depends, some people said they dream in coma, some people said they don't dream and can hear everything around them but they can't move their body.

For me reality is a trap for my soul, i believe that the dream world is just another life that I can access temporary to free my soul from this flesh and live a different life and reward me for surviving this hole.

There's also shifting realities but I'm not 100% sure if it exists
 
SoulWhisperer

SoulWhisperer

Careless Soul « MtF »
Nov 13, 2023
364
I wish I could live in a forever dream too... Without having to worry of all the pain people have inflicted upon me... And I don't think your social anxiety is ridiculous, I'm the same if not worse, I literally can't do anything on my own without freezing.

Also I wanted was peace and independence in this existence... But... It ain't as easy as it seems... đź’”
 
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EvisceratedJester

|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
Oct 21, 2023
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There's also shifting realities but I'm not 100% sure if it exists
It doesn't. I mean, for one, the theory that it is based on, Multiverse Theory, in no way claims that individuals can create their own reality and it is considered to be questionable by some physicists due to it being unfalsifiable. Two, even if we were to ignore this, there is no actual evidence proving their claims about them supposedly actually shifting to another reality. It's more likely that they are just practicing a form of dissociation, such as something similar to self-hypnosis.
 

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