merc5361
Member
- Aug 8, 2024
- 25
I had a high paying job in Singapore which I left to pursue my masters in Netherlands. Important to note that I'm from India.
However, my plan was not well thought out as my masters was in a different field and my experience was not related to it. As such, I wasn't able to secure a job and couldn't stay back in Netherlands.
I regret leaving my job in Singapore every single day! I was making so much, I could've stayed and maybe applied for PR. I ruined everything by being overambitious with no plans like always.
Now I have no job, stuck in a shitty country and I wonder if I will ever be able to leave this country again. I may never get an opportunity like that again, and I regret taking it for granted.
Why did I leave Singapore? At the time, I hated living there because of the rat race. But at least life was good, clean, safe. Now I'm stuck in a hellhole.
I know I'm ranting, I just want to let it all out. I've considered ending my life with CO, with hanging but I'm too scared to go through with it. I keep researching on ways to get out again, and I'm hoping I get one more chance by some miracle, and this time I'll cherish it with my life. But it seems unlikely to ever happen.
Anyway, life truly sucks if you're from the 3rd world. If you make a mistake, boom, that's it. No starting over. I truly envy those of you living in developed countries. But maybe grass is greener on the other side, eh?
However, my plan was not well thought out as my masters was in a different field and my experience was not related to it. As such, I wasn't able to secure a job and couldn't stay back in Netherlands.
I regret leaving my job in Singapore every single day! I was making so much, I could've stayed and maybe applied for PR. I ruined everything by being overambitious with no plans like always.
Now I have no job, stuck in a shitty country and I wonder if I will ever be able to leave this country again. I may never get an opportunity like that again, and I regret taking it for granted.
Why did I leave Singapore? At the time, I hated living there because of the rat race. But at least life was good, clean, safe. Now I'm stuck in a hellhole.
I know I'm ranting, I just want to let it all out. I've considered ending my life with CO, with hanging but I'm too scared to go through with it. I keep researching on ways to get out again, and I'm hoping I get one more chance by some miracle, and this time I'll cherish it with my life. But it seems unlikely to ever happen.
Anyway, life truly sucks if you're from the 3rd world. If you make a mistake, boom, that's it. No starting over. I truly envy those of you living in developed countries. But maybe grass is greener on the other side, eh?