• Hey Guest,

    As you know, censorship around the world has been ramping up at an alarming pace. The UK and OFCOM has singled out this community and have been focusing its censorship efforts here. It takes a good amount of resources to maintain the infrastructure for our community and to resist this censorship. We would appreciate any and all donations.

    Bitcoin Address (BTC): 39deg9i6Zp1GdrwyKkqZU6rAbsEspvLBJt

    Ethereum (ETH): 0xd799aF8E2e5cEd14cdb344e6D6A9f18011B79BE9

    Monero (XMR): 49tuJbzxwVPUhhDjzz6H222Kh8baKe6rDEsXgE617DVSDD8UKNaXvKNU8dEVRTAFH9Av8gKkn4jDzVGF25snJgNfUfKKNC8

  • Security update: At around 2:28AM EST, the site was labeled as malicious by Google erroneously, causing users to get a "Dangerous site" warning in most browsers. It appears that this was done by mistake and has been reversed by Google. It may take a few hours for you to stop seeing those warnings.

    If you're still getting these warnings, please let a member of staff know.
SomewhereAlongThe

SomewhereAlongThe

Student
May 17, 2024
193
I have autism and bipolar. My autism has been a struggle my entire life. Bright lights are painful, loud noises are painful, and I like being isolated away from people. When I'm around people I feel excluded or like I'm missing something that would make them want to talk to me. I try to suck up, but people notice that and don't like it. I've had no special interest I could dedicate my life to, and I've received no "perk" of being autistic. I've been weirdly obsessive my entire life and it ruins my life. I'm not a creative artist, and I'm not intelligent. I unfortunately didn't get my parent's genes for mathematics or art. This is the reason I want to ctb, because there's nothing to me. There's no talent or passion I have to dedicate myself to. I'm just stuck being an Autistic blob.
 
  • Hugs
  • Aww..
  • Like
Reactions: insideitsempty, binturong, yowai and 8 others
ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

death will be my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,551
I have autism and I understand how much it sucks. In my case, I've been "blessed" with how I'm good at mathematics but, aside from that, autism has caused me nothing but disadvantages. It made my life difficult and it also makes me trying to ctb much more difficult. I hate being autistic, this is pure misery
 
  • Hugs
Reactions: GlassMoon and Namelesa
S

sximii

meow
Dec 4, 2024
72
I have autism and bpd. I guess autism made me smart and creative, I like that aspect but it's also really difficult to live with. Interacting with people is impossible. Normal sounds feel 10x louder for me. I hate the fact that I hate being touched if that makes sense. I definitely get it
 
  • Like
  • Hugs
Reactions: insideitsempty, Namelesa, ALonelyFreak and 1 other person
A

ALonelyFreak

Member
Dec 7, 2024
34
Yes I get it autism sucks. Unfortunately dedicating your life to your passion wouldn't necessarily fix it. For example art requires money. So yeah I'm sorry autism sucks. Also it makes people hates you because you don't understand stupid social norms.
 
  • Hugs
Reactions: Namelesa
LostLily

LostLily

Why do I exist?
Nov 18, 2024
363
My brother has severe autism so he literally has the brain of a toddler and need help to go to the washroom. So the fact you can can write means you are better off than him
 
yowai

yowai

Experienced
Aug 28, 2024
257
I have autism and bipolar. My autism has been a struggle my entire life. Bright lights are painful, loud noises are painful, and I like being isolated away from people. When I'm around people I feel excluded or like I'm missing something that would make them want to talk to me. I try to suck up, but people notice that and don't like it. I've had no special interest I could dedicate my life to, and I've received no "perk" of being autistic. I've been weirdly obsessive my entire life and it ruins my life. I'm not a creative artist, and I'm not intelligent. I unfortunately didn't get my parent's genes for mathematics or art. This is the reason I want to ctb, because there's nothing to me. There's no talent or passion I have to dedicate myself to. I'm just stuck being an Autistic blob.
Me too, I used to like drawing and maybe that was my special interest, I felt like it was the only way to express my torment and connect with people but then I lost the drive completely, maybe because of antidepressants but I'm afraid I'll be completely nonfunctional without them. So I have nothing that I could completely dedicate myself to. I'm on disability and stuck in the house which worsens my mental health but there's so little jobs that would fit me. Imagine I have a younger sister who's not autistic, has a talent for drawing and other stuff, is in university and already traveled a lot, and has good friends. It makes me suffer even more lol.
 
  • Hugs
Reactions: SomewhereAlongThe

Similar threads

F
Replies
2
Views
135
Offtopic
Redacted24
R
mahoganylvr
Replies
2
Views
127
Recovery
mahoganylvr
mahoganylvr
Professor K
Replies
18
Views
636
Suicide Discussion
thronesick
thronesick