Rex
Lonely af
- May 25, 2018
- 168
So I ordered N, it arrived no issues but I slipped up and told someone, which happened to turn out to be a good thing, I was asked if I could keep myself safe and I legit said no... so I got sent into a ward, it was a nice place considering, that is why I haven't been on much.
I'm actually going back to the same ward because I lied to the doctor to get out, but I have a follow up and I'll be being honest with them and telling them I want the help, because I do now have hope again that I can turn my life around.
For me, I need to recover from my depression and suicidal thoughts, some meds are helping but I need therapy too. We did some mindfulness in the ward and it legit helped me and I didn't think it would. I also need to recover from my drug addiction, which they can help with too. My home environment isn't the best, but is getting better. So I'm now in recovery to get better, or attempt to.
By no means has my suicidal thoughts stopped, but for the first time in about 5years, I actually feel I can get the help I need now they know I went through the trouble of getting N etc. I'm at home currently but as above, plan to admit myself back to the ward for 2-3weeks or maybe more until things settle at home and I've got a solid plan for recovery.
Yes it might implode some minds on here that there is a recovery tag, and holy shit... a mod or admin in recovery? Doesn't sound right does it, but it's the truth. If you check the introduce yourself sticky in off topic, I do state we're a PRO-CHOICE forum, not anti-life.
Just wanted to post what I've been up to and what I plan to do, I respect everyone's decision because i am pro-choice myself, if you believe help is no longer going to recover you, fair enough... if you think you can still get help, then also fair enough. The key is; I respect peoples choice.
It isn't going to be easy for me, I'm still going to be around and such, mainly after my ward stay and then people who know me well, will know me from discord which I will be on regardless.
Wish me luck friends, I didn't think recovery was possible for me again but hope has come back and I do believe I can seek the proper help now. I'm only in my late 20s. But on the flip side, I know it isn't going to get fixed over a few weeks, but I'm going to try my best and just be honest so I get the right help.
Thanks for listening to my story, I wasn't going to post about my recovery but after a few days, I thought why not, I'm allowed to; that's what the recovery tag is for.
I'm actually going back to the same ward because I lied to the doctor to get out, but I have a follow up and I'll be being honest with them and telling them I want the help, because I do now have hope again that I can turn my life around.
For me, I need to recover from my depression and suicidal thoughts, some meds are helping but I need therapy too. We did some mindfulness in the ward and it legit helped me and I didn't think it would. I also need to recover from my drug addiction, which they can help with too. My home environment isn't the best, but is getting better. So I'm now in recovery to get better, or attempt to.
By no means has my suicidal thoughts stopped, but for the first time in about 5years, I actually feel I can get the help I need now they know I went through the trouble of getting N etc. I'm at home currently but as above, plan to admit myself back to the ward for 2-3weeks or maybe more until things settle at home and I've got a solid plan for recovery.
Yes it might implode some minds on here that there is a recovery tag, and holy shit... a mod or admin in recovery? Doesn't sound right does it, but it's the truth. If you check the introduce yourself sticky in off topic, I do state we're a PRO-CHOICE forum, not anti-life.
Just wanted to post what I've been up to and what I plan to do, I respect everyone's decision because i am pro-choice myself, if you believe help is no longer going to recover you, fair enough... if you think you can still get help, then also fair enough. The key is; I respect peoples choice.
It isn't going to be easy for me, I'm still going to be around and such, mainly after my ward stay and then people who know me well, will know me from discord which I will be on regardless.
Wish me luck friends, I didn't think recovery was possible for me again but hope has come back and I do believe I can seek the proper help now. I'm only in my late 20s. But on the flip side, I know it isn't going to get fixed over a few weeks, but I'm going to try my best and just be honest so I get the right help.
Thanks for listening to my story, I wasn't going to post about my recovery but after a few days, I thought why not, I'm allowed to; that's what the recovery tag is for.