
nihilism44
trying my best
- May 2, 2021
- 79
My dad has been an alcoholic my entire life. I've always drank socially, ever since highschool, but I always swore to never be like him. Fast forward to today, I have recently turned 21 and I'm buying/consuming alcohol almost daily. My mom recently died, we were fairly close and this is the first time I've dealt with grief (she ctb, how ironic). Drinking is the only way I have been able to cope, since smoking weed makes me anxious. Im drunk basically every night. I can't stand myself right now. Does anyone know how I can break this cycle before it gets out of hand?