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nothingbutafailure

nothingbutafailure

Member
Nov 21, 2024
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Sometime last week or so I felt sad as soon as I got home. It just seemed like the world was too fucked up and I didn't want to be a part of it anymore. I was crying.

I ended up dumping out a few bottles of Prozac into a glass and I started to eat small handfuls of them. Prozac makes me really sleepy even in small doses, so I thought I could take a large amount, like 20, then take a nap and wake up and take even more to finish if I felt like it.

I ended up chatting with 988 and some other chats, fell asleep and I woke up to the police pounding on my door. To be fair I was being an asshole when chatting on 988 that time. There was an ambulance and a police officer. They shined lights into my windows too. I came down again and I was pretty direct and thanked them for stopping by but gave them a firm no when they asked to come inside to see what's going on.

I guess I'm glad I did because as soon as I walked into my bedroom, I saw a tumbler cup full of pills, which they probably would have used to justify doing... their jobs.

Anyway, this was the closest I've been in a long time.

I'm a predominantly unhappy person and I didn't think I'd get to this point. I'm not even sure why I'm writing this.
 
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dontwakemeup

dontwakemeup

Experienced
Nov 11, 2024
297
I'm sorry you feel like this and going through a difficult time.
You are very lucky they didn't take you to psch with a hold.

I downed a whole bottle of Prozac and prepared to die. I was convinced I was going to die. I left goodbye videos for those I loved. Long story short, I woke up grossly sick and my throat felt swollen and I couldn't eat for 3 days. (I have anxiety so not sure if my throat was really swollen) but I was miserable.

Those pills don't work, especially psych medication. I see you're new here, welcome. Hopefully, you will find some peace inside here🥰 Best wishes to you.
 
maniac116

maniac116

My own worst enemy🌹💔
Aug 10, 2024
979
ODs on Rx meds have an 86% failure rate & most psych meds are fairly safe these days.
I'm sorry you're feeling so bad but its a really risky thing trying to OD. You could wind up hospitalized & physically or mentally disabled & suffering even worse than you are now🤗💔
 

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