I survived my attempt two days ago…

[Ozzyno]

I posted here that on the 7th I was about to kill myself by hanging in the woods… well, it's hunting season and a man saved me.

I really don't know what to do anymore… I'm at work normally today and I didn't really said anything to anyone, the man wanted to call an ambulance but I am a foreigner in Switzerland so I told him to leave me alone.

Someone wants to talk? Be friend? I don't know, I'm so confused, as a kid I didn't expect life to be this boring and bad.

 

[irismackenzie]

find your purpose.

 

[Lostandfound82]

I'm sorry you are struggling my dms are open if you would like to vent

 

[BJB]

Well I'm sure you gave the guy that found you a good story so there is that...

Perhaps time to have another go at finding something to ocupy your mind? Hobbies etc. Feel free to connect for ideas

 

[Ozzyno]

Well I'm sure you gave the guy that found you a good story so there is that...

Perhaps time to have another go at finding something to ocupy your mind? Hobbies etc. Feel free to connect for ideas

I'm not sure… I've always felt I was chained to this place and I can't find a way to get out of here. I have interests but I find them useless at the end of the day. I lived most of my life wondering if I will ever feel appreciated by anyone and I am becoming more and more crushed by the idea of ending my life without feeling loved by anyone except my mother. At the same time it's really difficult for me to not get bored easily of people.

 

[SilentSadness]

That's upsetting if you were forcefully prevented from your attempt. I understand not feeling appreciated by anyone. I hope you find peace from your suffering soon.

 

[cloudyskye]

I posted here that on the 7th I was about to kill myself by hanging in the woods… well, it's hunting season and a man saved me.

I really don't know what to do anymore… I'm at work normally today and I didn't really said anything to anyone, the man wanted to call an ambulance but I am a foreigner in Switzerland so I told him to leave me alone.

Someone wants to talk? Be friend? I don't know, I'm so confused, as a kid I didn't expect life to be this boring and bad.

I'm sorry you were interrupted. I hope you can find what you're looking for.

 

[L'absent]

I wrote to you privately until Saturday.

 

[dimgobaith]

I posted here that on the 7th I was about to kill myself by hanging in the woods… well, it's hunting season and a man saved me.

I really don't know what to do anymore… I'm at work normally today and I didn't really said anything to anyone, the man wanted to call an ambulance but I am a foreigner in Switzerland so I told him to leave me alone.

Someone wants to talk? Be friend? I don't know, I'm so confused, as a kid I didn't expect life to be this boring and bad.

I survived an attempt and everything seems do pointless now. I don't even have the energy to retry yet I know I can't live

 

[Ozzyno]

I survived an attempt and everything seems do pointless now. I don't even have the energy to retry yet I know I can't live

I still have to fully take in what happened

 

[coffeeadmirer]

I posted here that on the 7th I was about to kill myself by hanging in the woods… well, it's hunting season and a man saved me.

I really don't know what to do anymore… I'm at work normally today and I didn't really said anything to anyone, the man wanted to call an ambulance but I am a foreigner in Switzerland so I told him to leave me alone.

Someone wants to talk? Be friend? I don't know, I'm so confused, as a kid I didn't expect life to be this boring and bad.

Hey,

this is one of the first posts I am seeing on this forum and I can really relate to you. The path of suicide is a lonely one and no one will help you doing so. Even though I did not commit any attempts yet, it feels so boring to live and everything becomes meaningless. Do you want to talk? If so please dm me, because I dont know how to dm someone on this platform. Maybe you could teach me how everything works here and we could exchange some ideas.

coffeeadmirer

 

[cazza82]

I posted here that on the 7th I was about to kill myself by hanging in the woods… well, it's hunting season and a man saved me.

I really don't know what to do anymore… I'm at work normally today and I didn't really said anything to anyone, the man wanted to call an ambulance but I am a foreigner in Switzerland so I told him to leave me alone.

Someone wants to talk? Be friend? I don't know, I'm so confused, as a kid I didn't expect life to be this boring and bad.

How old are you if you don't mind me asking

 

[coffeeadmirer]

How old are you if you don't mind me asking

Look at this post: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/killing-myself-7th-december-my-goodbye-thread.187770/

The user owns a house and has a job. There is no need to worry about him being under 18 years old. Just to make sure

 

[Ozzyno]

How old are you if you don't mind me asking

26

Hey,

this is one of the first posts I am seeing on this forum and I can really relate to you. The path of suicide is a lonely one and no one will help you doing so. Even though I did not commit any attempts yet, it feels so boring to live and everything becomes meaningless. Do you want to talk? If so please dm me, because I dont know how to dm someone on this platform. Maybe you could teach me how everything works here and we could exchange some ideas.

coffeeadmirer

I would gladly private message you but you didn't post enough on the forum, I think you need to post 5 replies to be able to private message someone.

 

[cazza82]

26

I would gladly private message you but you didn't post enough on the forum, I think you need to post 5 replies to be able to private message someone.

Wow still so young have you ever thought of therapy or a counselling I'm in counselling right now it is helping talking I'm still having these dark thoughts but talking definitely helps

 

[coffeeadmirer]

26

I would gladly private message you but you didn't post enough on the forum, I think you need to post 5 replies to be able to private message someone.

Oh okay, thank you for the information. I will try to post some in next couple of days

 

[Ozzyno]

Oh okay, thank you for the information. I will try to post some in next couple of days

It's just replies, you could 'spam' a couple of messages here to reach 5 then you can text me lmao

Wow still so young have you ever thought of therapy or a counselling I'm in counselling right now it is helping talking I'm still having these dark thoughts but talking definitely helps

I don't feel young at all unfortunately, I feel like tomorrow I'm gonna be old and without hope, I went to a psychologist and she told me she couldn't help me so she told me to go to a psychiatrist. The psychiatrist wanted me to get pills to control my anxiety or something like that. I refuse to start using such a potent drug at the age of 26.

 

[coffeeadmirer]

It's just replies, you could 'spam' a couple of messages here to reach 5 then you can text me lmao

I don't feel young at all unfortunately, I feel like tomorrow I'm gonna be old and without hope, I went to a psychologist and she told me she couldn't help me so she told me to go to a psychiatrist. The psychiatrist wanted me to get pills to control my anxiety or something like that. I refuse to start using such a potent drug at the age of 26.

Oh lol. Might get warned by a mod though

 

[opheliaoveragain]

I still have to fully take in what happened

this makes sense let yourself feel your feelings. my dms are open as well. anytime.

 

[yowai]

I'm not sure… I've always felt I was chained to this place and I can't find a way to get out of here. I have interests but I find them useless at the end of the day. I lived most of my life wondering if I will ever feel appreciated by anyone and I am becoming more and more crushed by the idea of ending my life without feeling loved by anyone except my mother. At the same time it's really difficult for me to not get bored easily of people.

We're all chained to this place but fortunately it won't last forever, there is an exit and it's just a matter of time before we can all go home. You can make use of that time however you want, I was thinking of volunteering if I can make myself function again, even found one organization that assigns a volunteer to a troubled child so you can meet with them on a regular basis and help them build self esteem and cope with their troubles, sounds super wholesome if it's safe for the kids. And children have such pure souls and fresh look at life it could be healing for both sides

 

[Ozzyno]

We're all chained to this place but fortunately it won't last forever, there is an exit and it's just a matter of time before we can all go home. You can make use of that time however you want, I was thinking of volunteering if I can make myself function again, even found one organization that assigns a volunteer to a troubled child so you can meet with them on a regular basis and help them build self esteem and cope with their troubles, sounds super wholesome if it's safe for the kids. And children have such pure souls and fresh look at life it could be healing for both sides

I like children too, my mother owns a kindergarten, children there are between 6 months and 3 years old. It really brings me joy grabbing them and feeling their little hands on my neck. Some of them are really smart too and they also get affectionate with me a lot for some reason… the employees always tell me 'we wonder what they see in you because in a couple of days they fall in love with you' ahahahah

 

[timorousTruant]

My attempt being intercepted is one of my greatest fears. I'm sorry you had to go through that. I feel for you that you have to just carry on and go to work as if nothing has happened.

I hope you find either hope or peace soon.