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Rye

Rye

Breathe, when it’s all you can do.
Jun 30, 2023
10
It's been 10 months or so since i last logged in. The last time i was on here was just to say goodbye, it was the day of my last suicide attempt. I don't know why it's taken me so long to come back. I'm not sure if i wanted to. A lot has happened since then, I honestly feel like a different person.
I don't know if it's gotten better. I don't know if i'm better. I have new scars since then, new problems. Maybe it'll never get better, i don't know. I'm not even sure if i'm happy that i survived.
 
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lilah

lilah

Member
Nov 7, 2024
75
glad that you survived without any damage! what was your method?
 
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cali22♡

cali22♡

Selfharm Specialist♡
Nov 11, 2023
351
Hello,

Welcome back

Perhaps fate wanted to protect you from this decision...
If you didn't make it try to change something now, it can be difficult but you have the chance...
The suffering will unfortunately continue but you have a chance to reduce it

Take care of yourself

<3
 
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Rye

Rye

Breathe, when it’s all you can do.
Jun 30, 2023
10
glad that you survived without any damage! what was your method?
I had attempted to overdose on an assortment of pills
 
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maniac116

maniac116

My own worst enemy🌹💔
Aug 10, 2024
979
Wow, glad you're ok!! ODs don't work. You're lucky you are ok & not physically or mentally disabled.
Whatever you are choosing for your future, I hope all works out in your favor🤗🌹💔
 
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alltoomuch2

alltoomuch2

Warlock
Feb 10, 2024
769
It's been 10 months or so since i last logged in. The last time i was on here was just to say goodbye, it was the day of my last suicide attempt. I don't know why it's taken me so long to come back. I'm not sure if i wanted to. A lot has happened since then, I honestly feel like a different person.
I don't know if it's gotten better. I don't know if i'm better. I have new scars since then, new problems. Maybe it'll never get better, i don't know. I'm not even sure if i'm happy that i survived.
Thank you for being so brave and open about what happened and how you are now. It must be so confusing and difficult to not know if you are glad you are still alive. Have the circumstances that led to your attempt changed now? Do you see things in a different way since the o/d? I wish you much love and hope you can find clarity and hope for the future, even if it's in a small way xxx
 
Scorpio moon gal

Scorpio moon gal

Member
Apr 26, 2024
37
Wow, glad you're ok!! ODs don't work. You're lucky you are ok & not physically or mentally disabled.
Whatever you are choosing for your future, I hope all works out in your favor🤗🌹💔
really I just don't know why od's don't work...I see no other way that I'm okay with in ending my life
the only thing I can hope for is get drunk as a pig and throw myself off a building but....what if I don't land on my head....what if I don't die. and what of getting drunk doesn't mean I'll not be able to feel the panic of falling at such a height
 
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alltoomuch2

alltoomuch2

Warlock
Feb 10, 2024
769
really I just don't know why od's don't work...I see no other way that I'm okay with in ending my life
I believe they can work but not very often and when you survive there's a high risk of permanent damage making your life worse.
 
Scorpio moon gal

Scorpio moon gal

Member
Apr 26, 2024
37
the only thing I can hope for is get drunk as a pig and throw myself off a building but....what if I don't land on my head....what if I don't die. and what of getting drunk doesn't mean I'll not be able to feel the panic of falling at such a height
I believe they can work but not very often and when you survive there's a high risk of permanent damage making your life worse.
I wish I had nembutal😔
 
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alltoomuch2

alltoomuch2

Warlock
Feb 10, 2024
769
the only thing I can hope for is get drunk as a pig and throw myself off a building but....what if I don't land on my head....what if I don't die. and what of getting drunk doesn't mean I'll not be able to feel the panic of falling at such a height

I wish I had nembutal😔
That would be such a calm peaceful way to go if you could get it in the vein. Not sure it'd be as peaceful taken orally. I'd worry about that.
 
Scorpio moon gal

Scorpio moon gal

Member
Apr 26, 2024
37
That would be such a calm peaceful way to go if you could get it in the vein. Not sure it'd be as peaceful taken orally. I'd worry about that.
what is peaceful these days even😔 every way to go sounds like it might be a nightmare 🙌🏻
That would be such a calm peaceful way to go if you could get it in the vein. Not sure it'd be as peaceful taken orally. I'd worry about that.
what is peaceful these days even😔 every way to go sounds like it might be a nightmare
 
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hacha

hacha

ill wait
Sep 1, 2024
24
my method of preference is partial hanging. Its easy, classy, fast and painless if done well. No big preparation. Without the sensation of heat and blood in the head, the feeling of the rope around your neck is wholesome, maybe i have a kink with that. Also i find it very aesthetic, your head facing down, held by a rope to your neck and straight to the cealing, on your knees and with a nice outfit, maybe with something covering your face, looking good even dead
 
Rye

Rye

Breathe, when it’s all you can do.
Jun 30, 2023
10
my method of preference is partial hanging. Its easy, classy, fast and painless if done well. No big preparation. Without the sensation of heat and blood in the head, the feeling of the rope around your neck is wholesome, maybe i have a kink with that. Also i find it very aesthetic, your head facing down, held by a rope to your neck and straight to the cealing, on your knees and with a nice outfit, maybe with something covering your face, looking good even dead
What is the difference between partial hanging and full suspension pain wise?
Wow, glad you're ok!! ODs don't work. You're lucky you are ok & not physically or mentally disabled.
Whatever you are choosing for your future, I hope all works out in your favor🤗🌹💔
Yes, I realize now my method was most likely not effective. I'm also glad that I did not suffer any long term affects :)
 

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