Hello,
I want to thank you for taking your time to click this thread. It means a lot to me, truly.
Whether you are finding a way to get better or preparing for your CTB, I hope you may find some comfort in this post, whatever that may be.
Lurking around a couple of months ago, I came here to find the best way to ctb.
Now, paradoxically, I think I have found the will to live.
Thanks to the wealth of knowledge from everyone in this wonderful place that is supportive on BOTH sides with NO hidden agendas, unlike a lot of places nowadays, I have decided to try again at the game of life.
I have lost count how many times I have tried to fix myself, but I really feel like this time it is going to be different.
Why?
Because after reading about the stories of your pain and suffering that many of you have shared here, I realized I haven't been living and that I am really lucky to be in the position that I am in now, even if it seems like a black hole.
The stories and experiences you have shared with me were VERY humbling and eye opening.
From the bottom of the heart, thank you SO much for sharing.
It must have been hard and you may think you were just rambling and that no one will care or that it doesn't matter but for me it really did. It gave me a lot of perspective.
I wish I could help everyone but I can't and it sucks. I can't even help myself.
Also, now that I am armed with all this knowledge and confidence that I have the choice to CTB whenever I please, I want to fix myself first.
Maybe then can I try and help contribute somehow to reduce the suffering, even if its the smallest amount, I have witnessed here.
To everyone in recovery that continues to contribute, thank you. It's got to be hard to be sticking around when originally most came here to CTB. Without your presence here I may have taken that route a bit too early which I would regret at the moment so thank you really!
To everyone that helps with CTB methods and all that discussion, thank you for all of the tips and tricks.
No one should CTB painfully or without dignity.
To anyone that is in between, I hope you find peace and fulfillment wherever that may be.
The choice is yours ultimately.
To the all the people that are not pro-choice: This place has changed my life because I am given the knowledge to decide my own fate. Never have I ever been more liberated. I can't decide to be born but I can decide to die with dignity happily if I choose to.
I AM IN CONTROL OF MY LIFE NOW.
And finally, thank you to all the SS Staff for maintaining this forum!!
It just tears me up that this place has made me feel so appreciated, respected, and loved. It really is moving.
Thank you everyone.
I want to thank you for taking your time to click this thread. It means a lot to me, truly.
Whether you are finding a way to get better or preparing for your CTB, I hope you may find some comfort in this post, whatever that may be.
Lurking around a couple of months ago, I came here to find the best way to ctb.
Now, paradoxically, I think I have found the will to live.
Thanks to the wealth of knowledge from everyone in this wonderful place that is supportive on BOTH sides with NO hidden agendas, unlike a lot of places nowadays, I have decided to try again at the game of life.
I have lost count how many times I have tried to fix myself, but I really feel like this time it is going to be different.
Why?
Because after reading about the stories of your pain and suffering that many of you have shared here, I realized I haven't been living and that I am really lucky to be in the position that I am in now, even if it seems like a black hole.
The stories and experiences you have shared with me were VERY humbling and eye opening.
From the bottom of the heart, thank you SO much for sharing.
It must have been hard and you may think you were just rambling and that no one will care or that it doesn't matter but for me it really did. It gave me a lot of perspective.
I wish I could help everyone but I can't and it sucks. I can't even help myself.
Also, now that I am armed with all this knowledge and confidence that I have the choice to CTB whenever I please, I want to fix myself first.
Maybe then can I try and help contribute somehow to reduce the suffering, even if its the smallest amount, I have witnessed here.
To everyone in recovery that continues to contribute, thank you. It's got to be hard to be sticking around when originally most came here to CTB. Without your presence here I may have taken that route a bit too early which I would regret at the moment so thank you really!
To everyone that helps with CTB methods and all that discussion, thank you for all of the tips and tricks.
No one should CTB painfully or without dignity.
To anyone that is in between, I hope you find peace and fulfillment wherever that may be.
The choice is yours ultimately.
To the all the people that are not pro-choice: This place has changed my life because I am given the knowledge to decide my own fate. Never have I ever been more liberated. I can't decide to be born but I can decide to die with dignity happily if I choose to.
I AM IN CONTROL OF MY LIFE NOW.
And finally, thank you to all the SS Staff for maintaining this forum!!
It just tears me up that this place has made me feel so appreciated, respected, and loved. It really is moving.
Thank you everyone.
