BridgeJumper
The Arsonist
- Apr 7, 2019
- 1,194
After 12 years of bipolar disorder with severe suicidal thoughts running rampant in my head and destroying whatever was left of my life (life? bold to assume I had a life when it ceased to be a life once I turned 13), I decided I might give recovery a shot. Ive already discovered that some self help exercises that people generally disregard kinda improve my metal health (for example I took up art and long walks to take my mind off suicide and it helped me halt it and achieve longer periods out of psych ward). But now, I experienced something major. Im just out of a german hospital after I tried to jump off the bridge again. And guess what? The meds they prescribed me work perfectly. They keep me balanced, Im not manic, Im not depressed, I started doing chores and having small talk with my family. I feel like my old self is coming back! That is such a breakthrough I feel I need to try and keep it up that way. So Im sorry if I post here less and less often. I still dont rule my suicide out but its not as huge of a problem as it was before. Im sure some of you can relate.