I think I’ll do it tomorrow.

[spiritflowerchan]

Things haven't really gotten better. I'm on meds and in therapy but it seems everything is just pointless. Realized that if I keep living I won't get anything out of it. I have come to the point where I know it wouldn't matter if I'm dead or not, no one is going to give a fuck anyway except my mom. The only things I want are not obtainable in this life so I'm just gonna say fuck it and hope I wake up in heaven where I get to do shit or reincarnate into a more stable body

I'm planning to do a game. I'm gonna bring a shit ton of pills to a quiet basketball court and down each bottle until

1. Someone finds me
2. I vomit everything out (which I'm going to assume is going to be the case)
3. I pass out and wake up in the hospital (which also might be the case)
4. I somehow actually CTB. (Which is probably not going to be the case)

I know CTB through ODing is probably not going to kill me but it's all I have.

If I happen to vomit I might just walk to the nearby station and jump in front of a train

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best, I hope you find the relief you are searching for.

 

[Thisisnotaname]

You prolly finish in a psych ward for that, be aware of this.

 

[Edu Ardanuy]

Things haven't really gotten better. I'm on meds and in therapy but it seems everything is just pointless. Realized that if I keep living I won't get anything out of it. I have come to the point where I know it wouldn't matter if I'm dead or not, no one is going to give a fuck anyway except my mom. The only things I want are not obtainable in this life so I'm just gonna say fuck it and hope I wake up in heaven where I get to do shit or reincarnate into a more stable body

I'm planning to do a game. I'm gonna bring a shit ton of pills to a quiet basketball court and down each bottle until

1. Someone finds me
2. I vomit everything out (which I'm going to assume is going to be the case)
3. I pass out and wake up in the hospital (which also might be the case)
4. I somehow actually CTB. (Which is probably not going to be the case)

I know CTB through ODing is probably not going to kill me but it's all I have.

If I happen to vomit I might just walk to the nearby station and jump in front of a train

As someone just pointed it out, you will probably finish in a psych ward for that. I'm so sorry you come to this point.

 

[SVEN]

Best wishes, although unless you pass out and choke on your own vomit this seems more likely to, at worst, lead to potential organ damage and psychiatric evaluation.

 

[OptingOutSmiling]

All the best to you, may the result you achieve bring what you intend to achieve