I tried

[Fadingfast]

One last attempt at recovery. Truly dreading the entire process. Tried speaking to my mom about how I feel like dying and she had no words. We took the hour trip in silence. SS is the only place I've received feed back so a big thank you for that.

 

[Superfluous]

Best of luck. Hope it works out for you.

 

[Invisible one]

Good luck on your trip. Trying is pretty much all we can do.

 

[Fadingfast]

I should of ended this before it began... What a joke. No insurance so I'm getting stuck in state run bull shit facility. No help for the poor.

 

[Invisible one]

Are you suggesting that government ran programs are inept?? Never would have thought that
On a serious note, try to make the best of your time and keep an open mind. Dont let frustration cloud the reason you decided to go in the first place.

 

[Fadingfast]

I'm just frustrated lol for real like I'm not shocked but now I'm positive I've wasted my time. Frustrated.I said I tried hanging myself with a dog leash and She said I'm just FRUSTRATED.

 

[Dead beat dad]

One last attempt at recovery. Truly dreading the entire process. Tried speaking to my mom about how I feel like dying and she had no words. We took the hour trip in silence. SS is the only place I've received feed back so a big thank you for that.

Good luck my brother. Your mom may be struggling to process what is happening and may not know what to say.
What do you want her to say?
I sincerely hope your recover brings you the light and you find meaning and peace, best of luck friend
DBD

 

[Loli]

You might be "just frustrated" but it's amazing that you still try. Wish I had your strengh. Good luck, wish you all the best. Please take care!

 

[Grief]

Your mom may not know what is a helpful way of responding as the concept of suicide is incomprehensible/foreign to her. She also may be afraid that she is going to say the wrong thing to you and upset you. Despite her silence, she is probably extremely concerned and is thinking about you all the time.

 

[Invisible one]

That "F" word is a trigger...noted.

 

[-Link-]

I'm just frustrated lol for real like I'm not shocked but now I'm positive I've wasted my time. Frustrated.I said I tried hanging myself with a dog leash and She said I'm just FRUSTRATED.

Who gave you that response? Your mom, or someone at the facility?

If it was your mom, then even though it's a very dismissive thing to say (probably among the worst things to respond with, actually), I'd try not to read too much into it. As @Grief said, she may just have no idea how to handle suicidality in her child. It sounds like she dropped everything she was doing to drive you an hour away where she hopes you can get help, and this is what I would try to focus on.

If it was a medical professional who said that......... then.... Yikes.

 

[Severen]

Please don't tell them about this site. It has attracted enough attention already.

 

[Fadingfast]

I didn't say anything about the site. Got fired from the family business. Feeling like way less of a person. Want it to end soon. No way out of this bull shit. 11 days inpatient and now I truly believe ctb is my future.

 

[Bulletwbttrflywings]

One last attempt at recovery. Truly dreading the entire process. Tried speaking to my mom about how I feel like dying and she had no words. We took the hour trip in silence. SS is the only place I've received feed back so a big thank you for that.

Agreed

 

[Sitokirment]

I didn't say anything about the site. Got fired from the family business. Feeling like way less of a person. Want it to end soon. No way out of this bull shit. 11 days inpatient and now I truly believe ctb is my future.

Your family fired you after you tried getting help for your suicidal thoughts?

 

[Fadingfast]

Your family fired you after you tried getting help for your suicidal thoughts?

Yeah... I'm fucking done for. It may take a couple days to gain the courage but I can't keep up. Schizophrenia and a lack of understanding and compassion will be the death of me. I just got out of treatment today and I came home to this shit.

 

[WaterUnder]

Your mom may not know what is a helpful way of responding as the concept of suicide is incomprehensible/foreign to her. She also may be afraid that she is going to say the wrong thing to you and upset you. Despite her silence, she is probably extremely concerned and is thinking about you all the time.

That's what I was thinking, too.
I'm really glad you reached out and are seeking treatment. Try to get whatever you can out of it and advocate for yourself if you don't think the therapy is going to work for you. Thanks for sharing this.

As for your mom, maybe talk to the doctors about that, too. Maybe they can be a bridge between the two of you and help start a dialogue.

Best of luck to you. !