Discussion I turned into a zombie and a female voice spoke to me all night.

[TheSpookyNameGuy]

Forgive the title.

Anyone know what the fuck happened to me a while back?

I was fine all day, well miserable but still. It was late in the evening when i suddenly realised i was loosing control of my body as if i was sedated, my speech wouldn't come out and my mind blanked entirely.

My mind always works, i have a constant internal dialogue but it doesn't tire me out or anything.

I hobbled to bed while utterly mind blanked like a zombie, i sat on my bed and stared head down, i became paralysed and sat hunched like that till morning with my eyes open the whole time.

The thing is while it happened, a girls voice started talking to me, asking me things and mostly berating me, i must have been sub consciously replying without my notice during the whole thing.

5 minutes passed to my belief, i had a jolt and my body loosened entirely, my eyes were in agony and tearing badly. I skipped the whole night..

I've never had this before, i was so mentally hardened and now im just crazy i guess, any thoughts?

tldr:

I sat eyes opened all night conversing to a girl in my head, who was fighting me the whole time.

 

[dreamscape1111]

Have you done any intensive spiritual practices like meditation at some point?

 

[TheSpookyNameGuy]

Have you done any intensive spiritual practices like meditation at some point?

I mean i often sit or lay in bed and ponder what makes me tick, relive past experiences and see where the fuck i messed up.

So i guess i do meditate, yea

 

[dreamscape1111]

Hmm, was just wondering since there are many reports of people having spiritual experiences out of the blue that freak them out because they lack the proper context for them, but doesn't sound like it here.

I did also sometimes experience total blanks where time stops and all that's left is pure Being and oneness without any sense of separate self.

Your mind is imagining all of reality. If you start imagining devils enough, they will become real for you, just like anything else.

Right now you are imagining that you are a human, sitting here reading this computer screen and interacting with another human.

Demons are no different. Just replace "computer screen" with demon or whatever else you want.

Right now you are imagining me. You could also imagine a demon.

 

[Ayloy]

Untreated depression can lead to psychosis. Psychosis can last for temporary periods of time. This was likely that.

 

[TheSpookyNameGuy]

Untreated depression can lead to psychosis. Psychosis can last for temporary period of time. This was likely that.

Huh, i guess that explains the random black figures i see phasing in and out of my vision now, i never had this shit happen in my life at all.

See i often hear my dead cat meowing at night, he scratches my window, clearly in my mind as he never appears obviously, he did that all the time.

I time warp through the days now and i feel two dimensional after it happens, detached from reality if i would say what it feels.

Wow, so what now, I'm permanently fruit caked for life right?

 

[Ayloy]

Huh, i guess that explains the random black figures i see phasing in and out of my vision now, i never had this shit happen in my life at all.

See i often hear my dead cat meowing at night, he scratches my window, clearly in my mind as he never appears obviously, he did that all the time.

I time warp through the days now and i feel two dimensional after it happens, detached from reality if i would say what it feels.

Wow, so what now, I'm permanently fruit caked for life right?

Unlike depression you can recover from psychosis fully with therapy & mediation. However, once you're this far not getting access to help is a lot more dangerous & it's still dangerous until episodes of this stop. I'm sorry, but you are in danger.

 

[TheSpookyNameGuy]

Unlike depression you can recover from psychosis fully with therapy & mediation. However, once you're this far not getting access to help is a lot more dangerous & it's still dangerous until episodes of this stop. I'm sorry, but you are in danger.

I mean im not gonna lie, i might just let this stew cause this sounds brilliant, most exciting thing thats ever happened to me.

Its like im seeing the backstage of reality, my own personal tour of the beyond, my mind i suppose.

Im utterly convinced that im being guided to my own personal oblivion, death feels cheery and the right thing i should be doing, like i can feel it soo nice.

But wow lets just see what happens, maybe ill be on the news in the future rofl