social amoeba
you may rest here too, if you like
- Dec 14, 2024
- 14
im losing me. i want to be remembered for how i was before i got this bad. the longer i wait to ctb the less of myself i become and i can see it draining the people i want to love me and they're beginning to forget the old me they liked originally. im well known for what i can only describe as 'manic pixie dream girl' vibes and i feel like im losing it and getting more boring and its corrupting their memories of me for when im dead. i dont know whether its because i want to manipulate people in to missing me more when im gone or what. its not like it even matters because ill be dead. just when im dead i want them to think back on me and remember me as something special, rather than how i am now. does this even make sense