Being alive and above all feeling "forced" to stay alive in this shitty world because of humans and this pro-life society that does not want to leave people the freedom to choose whether they want to continue living or not is a total injustice and fucking mental torture.
It's so hard every day to have to pretend "I'm fine," pretend to have plans for the future, pretend to have something to do with retirement as if I was still going to live and work for decades and decades, while I'm the only one who knows that it will never happen and that probably in 1 year or a year and a half I'll be dead.
This is in part the reason why I am here and one of the reasons why I want to commit suicide, I HATE this hypocritical society that forces us to play a role, the role of the model and perfect citizen who is necessarily happy to live who has a good job, who kindly goes to vote in every election, who has money, who has a good car, a good house, who makes children to provide this society with future slaves who will in turn go to work, etc...
We cannot confide in anyone about our unease or if we think differently than what society would force us to think, otherwise we are treated as crazy or sick, we are hospitalized in a psychiatric hospital or locked up in prison.
My suicide will be both a way of freeing me from this prison that is life and a finger to this shitty pro-life society and humanity, it will be an act of revolt, an act of resistance, I will die as a martyr
Death is the only way out, death is a solution at every problems.
When you are alive, you have problems, responsibilities towards others, etc...
When you are dead, all problems are erased, you are in the tranquility of nothingness of non-existence, as before your birth.
It's so hard every day to have to pretend "I'm fine," pretend to have plans for the future, pretend to have something to do with retirement as if I was still going to live and work for decades and decades, while I'm the only one who knows that it will never happen and that probably in 1 year or a year and a half I'll be dead.
This is in part the reason why I am here and one of the reasons why I want to commit suicide, I HATE this hypocritical society that forces us to play a role, the role of the model and perfect citizen who is necessarily happy to live who has a good job, who kindly goes to vote in every election, who has money, who has a good car, a good house, who makes children to provide this society with future slaves who will in turn go to work, etc...
We cannot confide in anyone about our unease or if we think differently than what society would force us to think, otherwise we are treated as crazy or sick, we are hospitalized in a psychiatric hospital or locked up in prison.
My suicide will be both a way of freeing me from this prison that is life and a finger to this shitty pro-life society and humanity, it will be an act of revolt, an act of resistance, I will die as a martyr
Death is the only way out, death is a solution at every problems.
When you are alive, you have problems, responsibilities towards others, etc...
When you are dead, all problems are erased, you are in the tranquility of nothingness of non-existence, as before your birth.
