Venting I want to die

[SophieMakesGames]

I want to die and theres no possible way I can find to die, everything I touch burns,m everyone I know hurts, every relationship I have ends in death or pain, I just want to die and want it to all be over, I agreed to commit double suicide with someone, but in the end they didn't even let me know HOW to get SN and took it themselves and blocked me, no one on here knows where to get SN anymore it seems, and so that's out of the question, cus I'm not risking $200 on something that might not even work...



I'm going to drown or hang myself in the woods I think I don't know when but it's really hard to fight the urge not to...

all my pills are non overdosable becuasde I tried commiting suicide and nearly succeeded bby overdosing before,

I've tried slititng my wrists many times to the point moving my left hand is realy hard and strains it a lot and I don't know if tyrying again would be a good idea...

even if I tried my best to go as deep as possible, theres sti.ll a chance I fail and just fuck it up worse

theres no pills, no firearms,,

theres like 2 or 3 ropes outside that look liek they'd be perfect for hanging, and tons and tons of trees (in a forest0 as well as a deep pond...


and if anyone knows, transtaxevader was my friend, she took sn last night but threw up up and then took the rest tonight, and blocked me, while reufisng to help me kill myself.

why can't I die?
I want to die...

 

[Holu]

Tbh, I haven't personally known where to get SN since IC got busted and sold everyone out. But people still do know where to get SN, I think if people are hesitant to tell you it's because of new profile sadly.

That said I'm sorry the person blocked you. Even if they didn't want to share that was uncalled for.

 

[Novaaa]

I don't understand. Why do you need die with someone? Forest.. do you live in Japan?
Who is IC?
Maybe your friend doesn't want you die or doesn't want to feel responsable for that.

 

[finalgoodbye:(]

Tbh, I haven't personally known where to get SN since IC got busted and sold everyone out. But people still do know where to get SN, I think if people are hesitant to tell you it's because of new profile sadly.

That said I'm sorry the person blocked you. Even if they didn't want to share that was uncalled for.

Someone still remembers IC !

 

[tpboy]

sn is gone

 

[darksouls]

I am very sorry that you are feeling so bad
sending you hugs and love

 

[Holu]

Who is IC?

IC was an old SN distributor in which the traitorous whore Kenneth Law sold out the names and addresses of everyone he sold SN to which resulted in mass wellness checks and 5150s across the world.

Someone still remembers IC !

It wasn't THAT long ago lol. I'm not a grandpa

 

[SophieMakesGames]

I don't understand. Why do you need die with someone? Forest.. do you live in Japan?
Who is IC?
Maybe your friend doesn't want you die or doesn't want to feel responsable for that.

I didn't say I needed to die with someone...???

 

[TBONTB]

Tbh, I haven't personally known where to get SN since IC got busted and sold everyone out. But people still do know where to get SN, I think if people are hesitant to tell you it's because of new profile sadly.

That said I'm sorry the person blocked you. Even if they didn't want to share that was uncalled for.

I relate to that intensity of "I want to die" When things are overwhelming that's just all I can think and it comes with such impatience...such a strong feeling. Maybe your post is partly just to vent the feeling, and not really a request?

When i read your attempts it makes me wonder if you need a little more patience while planning, so that if you do decide to pull the trigger you have all your ducks in a row. Do you get relaxed from planning? If you do maybe start typing step by step instructions for one of the methods, or two and see what you would need to get right. Maybe you could find a source for SN (don't know, I don't have one), maybe hanging is for you. There are other methods on the mega-threads to explore. If this isn't a helpful idea, let it go!!!

 

[Paizen]

I don't understand. Why do you need die with someone? Forest.. do you live in Japan?
Who is IC?
Maybe your friend doesn't want you die or doesn't want to feel responsable for that.

you don't need to live in Japan to hang yourself in a forest

 

[Holu]

I relate to that intensity of "I want to die" When things are overwhelming that's just all I can think and it comes with such impatience...such a strong feeling. Maybe your post is partly just to vent the feeling, and not really a request?

When i read your attempts it makes me wonder if you need a little more patience while planning, so that if you do decide to pull the trigger you have all your ducks in a row. Do you get relaxed from planning? If you do maybe start typing step by step instructions for one of the methods, or two and see what you would need to get right. Maybe you could find a source for SN (don't know, I don't have one), maybe hanging is for you. There are other methods on the mega-threads to explore. If this isn't a helpful idea, let it go!!!

Did you accidentally quote me or am I trippin lol. I'm assuming you are talking to OP, but lmk if it was directed towards me

 

[TBONTB]

Did you accidentally quote me or am I trippin lol. I'm assuming you are talking to OP, but lmk if it was directed towards me

Oops, you are right! Accident

 

[bankai]

TTE survived their first attempt and tried again?hmm.i can see they were online some time ago.it's unfortunate they blocked you but I would imagine it's a turbulent and emotional time for any at that point so don't feel too bad.


That's sad OP.But no one is letting this info slide anymore.i don't know myself.

If you read on this site about anyone who announced they got SN in a thread they also make a disclaimer saying they will not help anyone else get it and not to pm them.i always chuckle when I read that.