Anarchy
Invisible anarchist
- Jul 9, 2018
- 383
I live with insulting parents, and extreme paranoia, and I want to be free from it before death. I want just a few hours or so to experience life without that before I die.
I want to run away, as far from my parents as I can, and die at my own pace. Be able to travel and exist for a while as a free person.
Running away seems unacceptable unless you are definitely being abused. It's one of those things that's completely taboo and unacceptable unless you do it, and then people have to accept it. Wish that I were abused at times, so that I'd feel justified and sane in wanting to run away. So that I'd be too desperate and focused on escaping to stay here, and so that I wouldn't have to ask if it's my parents or if it's me or if it's both.
Running away is expected for victims of abuse - for anyone else, even the thought of it is practically illegal.
I'm way too paranoid. Being away from my parents, people who know me, would help. My parents would get me locked up. Strangers wouldn't. Unless I were reported missing. Which would be almost definite. But still, hard for people to track me down.
Things I'm paranoid about:
-serious voices
-the phone ringing
-the doorbell ringing
-the post
- the sound of a car passing the house
-sirens
-internet cookies and saved browsing history
Need to be free from all of this. Want an exillerating final adventure where I don't need to feel uncomfortable because of parents, etc. Need a few hours of not feeling trapped.
I want to run away, as far from my parents as I can, and die at my own pace. Be able to travel and exist for a while as a free person.
Running away seems unacceptable unless you are definitely being abused. It's one of those things that's completely taboo and unacceptable unless you do it, and then people have to accept it. Wish that I were abused at times, so that I'd feel justified and sane in wanting to run away. So that I'd be too desperate and focused on escaping to stay here, and so that I wouldn't have to ask if it's my parents or if it's me or if it's both.
Running away is expected for victims of abuse - for anyone else, even the thought of it is practically illegal.
I'm way too paranoid. Being away from my parents, people who know me, would help. My parents would get me locked up. Strangers wouldn't. Unless I were reported missing. Which would be almost definite. But still, hard for people to track me down.
Things I'm paranoid about:
-serious voices
-the phone ringing
-the doorbell ringing
-the post
- the sound of a car passing the house
-sirens
-internet cookies and saved browsing history
Need to be free from all of this. Want an exillerating final adventure where I don't need to feel uncomfortable because of parents, etc. Need a few hours of not feeling trapped.