NSFW I want to have sex.

[Bcfgjk1]

My relationship with sex is not healthy. Despite my want to have sex, I doubt I'm ready to have sex.
(If you've read my last NSFW post, you'd probably discourage me from having sex.)

Even so, I can't help it. Everytime I'm sad, I'll pull up porn and masturbate. Orgasming feels so good, but masturbating isn't enough. Especially not with the crushes I have. I want a dick inside me. I want to be fucked. Ugh.

Like I said, it's not healthy because it's deeper than hormonal feelings. My hypersexuality, plus erotomania, is trauma-induced. Now, I'm sad.
I've been off my medication. I haven't been taking it for a little over a month, so I masturbate for a boost.

I want to get better, but it's so much easier to watch porn instead.

 

[GoSan1]

I have read your previous post and kinda feel like I can relate in some way.

I am an 22 Y.o male virgin who never even truly fell in love with someone. Never even had a first kiss. I am also kinda of a gentle sub so something similar to your previous post, which is maybe why it might be so difficult to find someone...

The main thing is, I do get that lust coping mechanism very well. While I take love damn serious in a way that the person who takes my first kiss is the one I would like to stay forever with, I still find myself sometimes craving sexual pleasure very much. Especially if feeling lonely as usual, then I immediately turn to masturbation and porn. Funny enough, I try to not watch porn with humans but rather hentais to make myself feel better since I'm not just watching humans do it or to not masturbate to someone's lover. Sadly sometimes it slips through and real porn it was.

As mentioned before this might be a comping mechanism created by our brain to try and make ourself feel less sad or lonely?
Either way, don't be too harsh on yourself. This world is cruel and makes us turn into something we aren't even are.

Wishing you the best!

 

[needthebus]

My relationship with sex is not healthy. Despite my want to have sex, I doubt I'm ready to have sex.
(If you've read my last NSFW post, you'd probably discourage me from having sex.)

Even so, I can't help it. Everytime I'm sad, I'll pull up porn and masturbate. Orgasming feels so good, but masturbating isn't enough. Especially not with the crushes I have. I want a dick inside me. I want to be fucked. Ugh.

Like I said, it's not healthy because it's deeper than hormonal feelings. My hypersexuality, plus erotomania, is trauma-induced. Now, I'm sad.
I've been off my medication. I haven't been taking it for a little over a month, so I masturbate for a boost.

I want to get better, but it's so much easier to watch porn instead.

If you've hit puberty, and you don't have sex on a regular basis, you will be very horny is you are a normal person.

I am perplexed by the idea of deeming normal hornyness as hypersexuality or erotomania

How does porn make you not better?

 

[Szarur-abi]

Random manga panel that i thought when seeing this thread (Oyasumi Punpun btw.)


I'm perpetualy horny and tourchstarved and its hard to bear, excessive masturbation and hot showers makes it bearable tho. I was in too many unhealthy relations this year, i surprised my antisocial ass with relations i was in... But im tired, every relation i had ended with tears basically, even when my horniness and tourchstarvation was solved short-term it wasnt worth the pain i felt after being abonded time and time again...I dont know if looking for a partner is even worth it at this stage, like i had many amazing dates few 'relations' that seemed to go somewhere, slept with couple persons but in the end i was rejected for reasons that i completely understand; mainly incompability that differed in each relation. Im afraid of trying again. So im left horny and tourch starved, too tired and depressed to even try dating again... Also i euthanised my friend (dog) month ago and its agonizing without her, when im not working i sleep all day (literally) with hot termofor that imitates her just to not think, not feel.

I know that everytime i try to write something short im spirraling into long venting... I cant keep it short, sorry for that there is always a follow up that i feel the need to include