Kadaver
let death be kinder than man
- Aug 11, 2023
- 128
I don't if I can do this anymore. I lost my strongest support beam, my best friend. Now we hardly talk and it breaks my heart. My body doesn't feel like my own to the point where I haven't left the house in over a month because my dysphoria is so bad
I want to try again. I want to order SN and try again to free myself from this nightmare I call my life. I'm so tired of everything—im so tired of myself. I'm tired of feeling so fucking miserable all the time to the point where I bedrot all day. I'm tired of wanting so fucking badly to make friends and put myself out there but I can't because of my anxiety and dysphoria. I just want this to be over. I don't want to try anymore. I don't want to "wait until it gets better" anymore. I want to be done. I want to be free
I know that I'm never going to get better. There's no point in giving anyone hope that I might be ok one day. There's not point in meeting more people who will be hurt at my passing. I just want to let go and disappoint everyone one last time and then be done; they won't ever have to worry about me again
I want to try again. I want to order SN and try again to free myself from this nightmare I call my life. I'm so tired of everything—im so tired of myself. I'm tired of feeling so fucking miserable all the time to the point where I bedrot all day. I'm tired of wanting so fucking badly to make friends and put myself out there but I can't because of my anxiety and dysphoria. I just want this to be over. I don't want to try anymore. I don't want to "wait until it gets better" anymore. I want to be done. I want to be free
I know that I'm never going to get better. There's no point in giving anyone hope that I might be ok one day. There's not point in meeting more people who will be hurt at my passing. I just want to let go and disappoint everyone one last time and then be done; they won't ever have to worry about me again