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rllysuper

rllysuper

ready to go
Jan 7, 2025
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Tonight I drove to my planned CBT spot just to get a feel for the atmosphere. It's a crappy lake I grew up swimming in, and I have so many memories associated with it.

It feels weird thinking about how this might be my final destination. It made me think of all of the reasons I want to CBT and all the reasons I don't, and if I can still be "saved". I'm honestly not sure. Maybe I'm back on the fence, but I'd like to still have the option.

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The photos don't do it justice. I think it's more beautiful like this; at night and with snow on the ground. I feel like I can find peace here. It's quiet, devoid of people, and you can see the stars when it gets really dark. I just need to make sure I dress warm enough.

I also called 988 because I've never called before. I don't think calling helped much; I was too choked up to thoroughly explain my situation and I was a bit paranoid that she would call emergency services on me. Because of that, her advice was very surface level, but I appreciate the effort. Still, I don't think it made me feel any differently.
 
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Gangrel

Gangrel

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Jul 25, 2024
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it is beautiful indeed :heart:
 
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parasite_eve

parasite_eve

Between life and death; a secret third thing.
Jan 3, 2025
150
Looks like a sublime peaceful spot, I think good on you taking time to reflect whatever you decide <3
 
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lost_one

lost_one

Once
Nov 3, 2024
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Tonight I drove to my planned CBT spot just to get a feel for the atmosphere. It's a crappy lake I grew up swimming in, and I have so many memories associated with it.

It feels weird thinking about how this might be my final destination. It made me think of all of the reasons I want to CBT and all the reasons I don't, and if I can still be "saved". I'm honestly not sure. Maybe I'm back on the fence, but I'd like to still have the option.

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The photos don't do it justice. I think it's more beautiful like this; at night and with snow on the ground. I feel like I can find peace here. It's quiet, devoid of people, and you can see the stars when it gets really dark. I just need to make sure I dress warm enough.

I also called 988 because I've never called before. I don't think calling helped much; I was too choked up to thoroughly explain my situation and I was a bit paranoid that she would call emergency services on me. Because of that, her advice was very surface level, but I appreciate the effort. Still, I don't think it made me feel any differently.
Sorry for how you feel, the place it trully beautiful
 
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OTanerd

Member
Jan 15, 2025
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Tonight I drove to my planned CBT spot just to get a feel for the atmosphere. It's a crappy lake I grew up swimming in, and I have so many memories associated with it.

It feels weird thinking about how this might be my final destination. It made me think of all of the reasons I want to CBT and all the reasons I don't, and if I can still be "saved". I'm honestly not sure. Maybe I'm back on the fence, but I'd like to still have the option.

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The photos don't do it justice. I think it's more beautiful like this; at night and with snow on the ground. I feel like I can find peace here. It's quiet, devoid of people, and you can see the stars when it gets really dark. I just need to make sure I dress warm enough.

I also called 988 because I've never called before. I don't think calling helped much; I was too choked up to thoroughly explain my situation and I was a bit paranoid that she would call emergency services on me. Because of that, her advice was very surface level, but I appreciate the effort. Still, I don't think it made me feel any differently.
It is truly a beautiful place.
 
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Autumn_Stars

Autumn_Stars

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Jun 9, 2024
74
.Because of the time of year there's less chance of a family finding your corpse.
 
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mango000

mango000

wants to sleep forever
Nov 12, 2024
59
looks very beautiful and peaceful. i think its good to take time to reflect, i hope you find peace with whatever you decide <3
 
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frailcoffee

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Oct 13, 2024
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Tonight I drove to my planned CBT spot just to get a feel for the atmosphere. It's a crappy lake I grew up swimming in, and I have so many memories associated with it.

It feels weird thinking about how this might be my final destination. It made me think of all of the reasons I want to CBT and all the reasons I don't, and if I can still be "saved". I'm honestly not sure. Maybe I'm back on the fence, but I'd like to still have the option.

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The photos don't do it justice. I think it's more beautiful like this; at night and with snow on the ground. I feel like I can find peace here. It's quiet, devoid of people, and you can see the stars when it gets really dark. I just need to make sure I dress warm enough.

I also called 988 because I've never called before. I don't think calling helped much; I was too choked up to thoroughly explain my situation and I was a bit paranoid that she would call emergency services on me. Because of that, her advice was very surface level, but I appreciate the effort. Still, I don't think it made me feel any differently.
Oh those photos are absolutely lovely. I hope peace finds you soon. Best of luck.
 
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nothingbutmybest

nothingbutmybest

Student
May 1, 2023
130
It's nice, quite nice
 
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