I wish I had a suicide partner

[yellowraincoat225]

I've always thought that double suicides are romantic and beautiful. Don't think I'll ever find someone in my real life who will want to take a cyanide pill with me, or will hold hands while we jump though.

You know those stories about people who find their maybe slightly toxic soulmate on some obscure unmoderated forum. They meet in real life, and they get on like a house on fire and they plan and commit a horrific act together.

I often daydream about finding my other half, but instead of the "horrific act" it's just a pact to die in each other's arms. This person is preferably my age, doesn't matter what gender. We'd order sn together, get all the other stuff ready. We'd write letters together. Then we'd run away, spend a week in motels and diners, just going crazy, eating out, drinking, smoking weed, doing graffiti, taking mushrooms and exploring hiking trails, and having the best week of our lives. Then we'd spend the last of our savings on a nice hotel room, take our sn drink, put on some music. We'd leave our notes on our bedside tables, we'd close all the curtains and shut off the lights.

Then we'd just lay on the bed holding hands or cuddling, maybe we'll occasionally exchange updates, but they'll become less and less frequent as we both slip into unconsciousness.

The cleaning staff will find our dead bodies entangled in each other.

Is this really so much to ask for...

 

[PhilosopherInAV0id]

Is this really so much to ask for...

I really wish it wasn't. I really wish it wasn't. I've given up on the idea of finding anyone similar. If I'm going out, it's going to have to be on my own terms and willpower. Having a partner would be nice, but I'll never find one.

 

[StrawberryRed]

I agreeeee but like on another note, I find it do romantic when one partner dies and the other dies or kills themselves soon after. Like specifically with like 60 yr long marriges like first love thing. If I'm over the age of 65 and my partner dies honestly I would probably kms. Idk how peoples whole family dies and they keep going. This will sound so morbid but I always hoped that if I kms my future partner would at least try to be w me yk. Not to die together but like die for each other. Romeo and juliet typeshit

 

[yellowraincoat225]

I agreeeee but like on another note, I find it do romantic when one partner dies and the other dies or kills themselves soon after. Like specifically with like 60 yr long marriges like first love thing. If I'm over the age of 65 and my partner dies honestly I would probably kms. Idk how peoples whole family dies and they keep going. This will sound so morbid but I always hoped that if I kms my future partner would at least try to be w me yk. Not to die together but like die for each other. Romeo and juliet typeshit

Yes same, wish I could meet someone who loved me like that.

I also have fantasies where I meet someone I love so much that I'd let them kill me, or at the very least I wouldn't mind if they killed me, accident or otherwise.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

That'd be so nice but unfortunately such a thing is immensely risky in a world like this because they could end up betraying you and not letting you die or one of you could survive which means that the one who survives will be imprisoned and so on. For me, it just sounds better to die alone because of how anti suicide humans are

 

[socrates]

That'd be so nice but unfortunately such a thing is immensely risky in a world like this because they could end up betraying you and not letting you die or one of you could survive which means that the one who survives will be imprisoned and so on. For me, it just sounds better to die alone because of how anti suicide humans are

Agreed. To much risk. We were born alone, we will die alone. That's how it works (I know twins are a thing, but you get my point)

 

[L'absent]

No, that's not too much to ask. It's really romantic. I'm here if you want a grand finale. Maybe we join together with other people and leave the bad world together.
Those who survive and risk prison have one more reason to overcome every fear and hang completely from the rope.

 

[keechu]

i swear this is exactly the type of dreams I've had since forever. even more frequently since I watched a movie (romeo Juliet remake I think ?) where at the end both the main leads are running from some bad guys and they realize they'll not be able to escape them so they both shoot each other while saying their last iloveyous and in each other's arms. like it felt so so romantic I was immediately smitten by the idea (i was very young when I saw it) and decided this is how I wanted to go. inseparable from my beloved till my last breaths. *dreamy sighs*

 

[lonergirl_26]

I feel the same way. Personally I wouldn't even mind if they didn't actually want to carb I'm just so lonely I would love to spend my last days/hours on this earth not feeling lonely. Also people on here always say to be careful about meeting with people but what's the worst that could happen as long as I pass I don't mind how I get there via my own hands or not.

 

[beseechgod]

I'm actively looking for a partner, I'm willing to get to know as many people as it takes to find the right one or ones. So please hit me up anyone Maybe the stars will align. I'm 26F in case that matters.

 

[Tig]

Romance, I would have partnered with my wife, hand in hand, till death do us part......
She died of a heart attack 3000 miles away though, many years ago, while we were both working on the dream. I would have done the deed, head on with her, living a life that's full.
That's romantic.

There is a partner forum on this site.
By all means check it out, if you have the courage, no Romance whatsoever,
Just pain and suffering.

After 3 1/2 years of looking, a dozen tragic stories, and 3 people spoken to and vetted out, one going by herself, and even a group pact, it's very un romantic, to say the least.
I've partnered a month from now, finally finding someone she/i can connect with in the final moments.
There is nothing romantic about it, Just friends sharing death.

My wife, 28 years of love, pain, ups and downs, raising children, and everything that happened in our life "TOGETHER",as soulmates, thats "romantic".

Cold hard facts people.......
Romance is not for a week, it involves years and years to get it right, find the right soulmate, and "PRACTICED OBEDIENCE" to one, another.

A week involves the feelings of SI, in tandem and nothing more.
There is nothing romantic about that.

 

[foreverlanguish]

I know 100% what you mean. I doubt I'll find a partner personally, I'm still looking, but in my head I've always absolutely adored the idea of a romantic kind of suicide pact, with our last day spent having fun and then ending it off with cuddling in each others arms and just being comfy with each other, maybe even play some of our favorite songs on our playlists. I would definitely recommend trying the partners megathread, you might get lucky.

 

[divinemistress36]

To much risk. I hope someone murders me instead

 

[twistedtransistor69]

I wish so badly I had this.. but at the same time I think I'd be too wracked with guilt

 

[ShatteredSerenity]

I wish I could die with a doctor or experienced euthanasia provider by my side to make sure I end up dead as a doornail.

If there was someone else to go through the experience of CTB with me, that could be helpful and comforting, but I'd also want a professional there to make sure it all went according to plan.

 

[broken_doll]

I wishhh. I've never been close to anyone my entire life so I think it would be lovely

I guess it'll just stay a comforting daydream

 

[Blackswede]

How about instead of a cbt partner, you make a friend instead! Sounds like a lot more fun. You never know, there maybe be someone that connects with you on a deeper level somewhere here. Just lurking waiting to be found!!

 

[Surai]

I Imagine a partner where we survive war together and travel through broken building surviving together. having moments laughing amidst the uncertainty. and near the end when we run out of rations and the tempurature forces our bodies to slow down. We just there and decide to remove ourselves. And I see u ther just one second. Ok lets do it. See ya later

 

[Wezzy777]

Omg
But— yeah. It'd be nice if finding partners was somehow easier. Having fun before dying would make the act itself more bearable.
But the way you described it reminds me of a film on Netflix; "End of the fucking world' where this guy beats up his dad to leave home with his gf and they run away and travel across the state, eat out in diners, accidentally murder a guy, the girl finds her dad who she thought left.
They matched each other perfectly.
Ugghhn perfect CBT partner is only a fantasy

 

[GlassMoon]

I guess if I found somebody whom I could trust and be open with to the level you described, my desire to CTB would be greatly reduced...

 

[Valhala]

Dying for her but without her is also romantic, if she wants and can - let her live, I don't have why without her.

 

[me_when_:D]

That'd be so nice but unfortunately such a thing is immensely risky in a world like this because they could end up betraying you and not letting you die or one of you could survive which means that the one who survives will be imprisoned and so on. For me, it just sounds better to die alone because of how anti suicide humans are

do cops investigate suicide that much? Is it not possible to hide the evidence?

The exit bag is great for that, it doesn't show anything on autopsy

 

[L'absent]

Yes, it's interesting. You could think of hanging each other in complete suspension. Or throw your car off a cliff while shaking hands. Nice to wait for the train while the lovers exchange their last kiss on the tracks, a bit splatter, but okay. The most romantic is sitting on a swing on the terrace, hugging each other while looking at the snow and sipping the last Nembutal drink.