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[hopeno1Iknowseesme]

So I've been thinkin about cutting for the first time recently and i took the blade out of my handheld sharpener. Pretty sharp idk, but i was wondering if I should clean it with something better than hydrogen peroxide or is that okay? Ironic that I've been considering this yet I still don't want pencil shit all in my arm when I do it lol. But yeah some advice from ppl who've done this b4 maybe, would be good

 

[hopeno1Iknowseesme]

Cutting is just fucking stupid. Don't be fucking stupid.

But I am fucking stupid lol, took me forever to figure out how this site works. I'm not ready to go all the way yet I just wanna hurt myself you know? I've never self harmed to this degree before but I want to try and this is what was available. I'm literally no expert on what cleans blades the best, lmao

 

[Virgo]

But I am fucking stupid lol, took me forever to figure out how this site works. I'm not ready to go all the way yet I just wanna hurt myself you know? I've never self harmed to this degree before but I want to try and this is what was available. I'm literally no expert on what cleans blades the best, lmao

I can tell you quite a lot about that, but you really shouldn't be cutting. Self harm causes more harm than pleasure. PM me if you want, but know you will fuck a lot of shit up. Drugs, self harm etc are real dumb.

 

[Shewaitsforme]

So I've been thinkin about cutting for the first time recently and i took the blade out of my handheld sharpener. Pretty sharp idk, but i was wondering if I should clean it with something better than hydrogen peroxide or is that okay? Ironic that I've been considering this yet I still don't want pencil shit all in my arm when I do it lol. But yeah some advice from ppl who've done this b4 maybe, would be good

Dont start doing it. Its silly, youll just end up trying to cover scars for years to come, feeling embarrassed if people see them or ask you why you did that to yourself. I have dark skin amd still have scars from when i was 12

 

[hopeno1Iknowseesme]

Dont start doing it. Its silly, youll just end up trying to cover scars for years to come, feeling embarrassed if people see them or ask you why you did that to yourself. I have dark skin amd still have scars from when i was 12

I just keep getting urges, there are tons of knives and blades in this house and during my recent episodes ive been getting flashes in my head, pictures of me taking the blades out of shit and just, not deeply, or large, just seeing how much I can go through with. I want to build my tolerance to this kindof level of hurting myself so that if slowly neglecting myself doesn't work, or I don't miraculously get stabbed or shot at one day, I can get it done with when I feel the time is right. I don't want to just never make a move and live longer than I want to. Idk. If there's anything I can do to harm besides this, I'm open to it, but some part of me wants to feel disturbed seeing the evidence on myself every day. Idk. I feel stupid and contradictory

 

[Sinbad]

Go ahead and cut yourself if it helps you cope with the emotional pain your experiencing.. Watch some videos on how to do it correctly.

Be advised: This is only a very short time solution with a long-term scar tissue. Ideally, you find another way to cope with your pain.

 

[hopeno1Iknowseesme]

Go ahead and cut yourself if it helps you cope with the emotional pain your experiencing.. Watch some videos on how to do it correctly.

Be advised: This is only a very short time solution with a long-term scar tissue. Ideally, you find another way to cope with your pain.

The thing about long term is that it's kinda relative...I'm not planning on living past my late 20's or maybe even before that, and I'm not planning on putting them in a place where they'll be visible...maybe I'll just do a little one somewhere like my idk. Inner elbow or something. I have plenty of non-self-inflicted scars already that I never know if I despise or kinda take pride in, so maybe I can pass it off as an accident if my family sees or smthn. God I can't ever make a decision I just don't want to get tetanus or something

 

[Virgo]

The thing about long term is that it's kinda relative...I'm not planning on living past my late 20's or maybe even before that, and I'm not planning on putting them in a place where they'll be visible...maybe I'll just do a little one somewhere like my idk. Inner elbow or something. I have plenty of non-self-inflicted scars already that I never know if I despise or kinda take pride in, so maybe I can pass it off as an accident if my family sees or smthn. God I can't ever make a decision I just don't want to get tetanus or something

Not how it works. You will have cuts all over your body. You will hit arteries, tendons, or muscles.

 

[Sinbad]

Yeah you know best where to cut yourself. Make sure you always use sterile blates from the pack (Razer Blade 100 pack)

 

[hopeno1Iknowseesme]

Not how it works. You will have cuts all over your body. You will hit arteries, tendons, or muscles.

Like after I do it I'll keep doing it and not in the wisest places?..

 

[hopeno1Iknowseesme]

Yeah you know best where to cut yourself. Make sure you always use sterile blates from the pack (Razer Blade 100 pack)

Not sure when I'm gonna b able to pull off buying a whole pack without being found out but at least that allows me to simmer in indecision for a little while longer

 

[[NoName]]

Self harm can become an addiction. You need to know that sooner or later, what you do to yourself now won't be enough and you'll escalate. Please remember this, so that if you find yourself wanting to stop you can have a frame of mind to work with. Look up how other addicts handle their habits in order to control themselves. Maybe look through this, understand the risk you're taking, and keep this bookmarked or something if things go south. https://www.helpguide.org/articles/addictions/overcoming-drug-addiction.htm

You'll probably end up with scars and have to deal with the social stigma later on.

If you do decide to do this, here is a post about having a first aid kit for self harm: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/first-aid-guide.73/

No matter what you decide to do, always have resources close by to make sure you stay safe.

 

[hopeno1Iknowseesme]

Self harm can become an addiction. You need to know that sooner or later, what you do to yourself now won't be enough and you'll escalate. Please remember this, so that if you find yourself wanting to stop you can have a frame of mind to work with. Look up how other addicts handle their habits in order to control themselves. Maybe look through this, understand the risk you're taking, and keep this bookmarked or something if things go south. https://www.helpguide.org/articles/addictions/overcoming-drug-addiction.htm

You'll probably end up with scars and have to deal with the social stigma later on.

If you do decide to do this, here is a post about having a first aid kit for self harm: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/first-aid-guide.73/

No matter what you decide to do, always have resources close by to make sure you stay safe.

Thanks. I'll keep the resources close if I decide to do anything

 

[[NoName]]

Thanks. I'll keep the resources close if I decide to do anything

I hope I didn't come off too strong. I try to be direct in situations like this, but I don't really know how my tone comes across online sometimes.

 

[hopeno1Iknowseesme]

I hope I didn't come off too strong. I try to be direct in situations like this, but I don't really know how my tone comes across online sometimes.

No yeah, not too terse at all. A good amount of both informational and not exactly supportive but like, caring for my safety? Yeah

 

[LiveSlowDieFast]

To those who (understandably) discourage cutting: What else do you think one should do in a situation where they get the urge to cut to relieve anxiety or emotional pain?

 

[silentinbetween]

personally im a throw yourself in a wall/punch yourself/scratch/ kinda gal because the scarring just brings too much attention. I must say that its more satisfying to cut, tho.

 

[Virgo]

To those who (understandably) discourage cutting: What else do you think one should do in a situation where they get the urge to cut to relieve anxiety or emotional pain?

Not sure why there would be an urge to cut if you haven't cut yet. It just gets worse though.

 

[LiveSlowDieFast]

Not sure why there would be an urge to cut if you haven't cut yet. It just gets worse though.

Because cutting relieves those feelings...

 

[Angst Filled Fuck Up]

It's easy to look down on cutting and be like "that's stupid" if you've never had the urge. I don't understand it myself either, but I wouldn't look down on somebody for it. It's a gray area for a forum like this though - we understand pain but don't want to encourage anyone to hurt themselves. Regardless, I suspect we have quite a few cutters on the forum. If you must do it, I imagine keeping wounds superficial and clean would be important. But of course I do also hope you can find a less harmful outlet.

 

[Virgo]

It's easy to look down on cutting and be like "that's stupid" if you've never had the urge. I don't understand it myself either, but I wouldn't look down on somebody for it. It's a gray area for a forum like this though - we understand pain but don't want to encourage anyone to hurt themselves. Regardless, I suspect we have quite a few cutters on the forum. If you must do it, I imagine keeping wounds superficial and clean would be important. But of course I do also hope you can find a less harmful outlet.

I would disagree, those that have gone through it are the most motivated to discourage others.

 

[Virgo]

Because cutting relieves those feelings...

Read my post again.

 

[Angst Filled Fuck Up]

I would disagree, those that have gone through it are the most motivated to discourage others.

What we or an ex-cutter might want for the OP is irrelevant. I can sit there and tell someone not to do drugs, but if they want a hit, they're going to do drugs. If we tell her no, we're saying it's fine to kill yourself but a few scars are off the table. That's a little odd, don't you think?

 

[Virgo]

What we or an ex-cutter might want for the OP is irrelevant. I can sit there and tell someone not to do drugs, but if they want a hit, they're going to do drugs. If we tell her no, we're saying it's fine to kill yourself but a few scars are off the table. That's a little odd, don't you think?

Killing yourself=Good thing
Self harm = good thing in the short run, but bad thing in the long run.

 

[LiveSlowDieFast]

Read my post again.

I asked what alternatives to self harm you suggest and you say that you don't get why one would get the urge if they haven't cut before (I have cut before). I don't really get what you're trying to tell me..

 

[Virgo]

I asked what alternatives to self harm you suggest and you say that you don't get why one would get the urge if they haven't cut before (I have cut before). I don't really get what you're trying to tell me..

If you have cut before there isn't an alternative. Just ways to cope.

 

[LiveSlowDieFast]

If you have cut before there isn't an alternative. Just ways to cope.

Yeah, you're probably right. Is there a healthy way of coping you find particularly helpful?

 

[Dead_Inside]

So I've been thinkin about cutting for the first time recently and i took the blade out of my handheld sharpener. Pretty sharp idk, but i was wondering if I should clean it with something better than hydrogen peroxide or is that okay? Ironic that I've been considering this yet I still don't want pencil shit all in my arm when I do it lol. But yeah some advice from ppl who've done this b4 maybe, would be good

Peroxide will do fine. Cut careful the first time- if you don't want the pain but do want the self harm try using some lidocaine spray (available at a beauty store etc). Obviously the first one you can say was due to some accident- but you are going to have to hide these cuts if you want to do them all the time.
Self harm, drug use, alcolism.... suicide. Just thing that sad and very injured people do- not stupid actions.

 

[Nanami]

I don't see the issue with cutting, but please enlighten me.
Sure, cutting is considered an unhealthy coping mechanism, but for people who want to ctb, does it really matter that much?
Is it really any worse than smoking or drinking alcohol?
If it makes your time until you ctb easier, isn't that a good thing?

I realize that people who want to continue living need healthy coping mechanisms that work long-term, but I just don't see how it matters for people who want to leave early anyway.

 

[Shewaitsforme]

I don't see the issue with cutting, but please enlighten me.
Sure, cutting is considered an unhealthy coping mechanism, but for people who want to ctb, does it really matter that much?
Is it really any worse than smoking or drinking alcohol?
If it makes your time until you ctb easier, isn't that a good thing?

I realize that people who want to continue living need healthy coping mechanisms that work long-term, but I just don't see how it matters for people who want to leave early anyway.

But what if they dont go through with suicide for whatever reason they could be made to feel like a freak or outcast when they are trying to recover. I see both sides of it, i remember in hospital a girl who has so many scares, ive never seen that many on both arms, another patient came in and kept asking her about them, she felt so embarrassed and went quiet, tried to cover her arms. When i see scars i dont say anything, if the person wants to tell me about them thats cool ill listen, we all have battle wounds some are just on the inside rather than outside