ZoloftSüchtig
It wasn’t supposed to be like this
- Apr 9, 2023
- 151
I've tested partial a bunch now and at first Ive had an easy time getting to that passing out feeling, it came so quickly it was almost scary because I was only testing back then. And it did not feel bad at all it almost felt peaceful I would say. But now that I am ready I can't get to that passing out feeling anymore. Why why why! Somehow getting close to it I feel like I am suffocating so I have to get up but it never feels close to as peaceful as it did in my earlier attempts. Idk whats wrong! I am down to do to full suspension too but if I cant get it there with partial how can I know it wont hurt in full suspension? I just wanna be dead! I'd much rather jump of a tall bridge but that bridge is too far. away. Other option would be via train but I'd really prefer doing something that does not include a train driver but if I can't get hanging to work I might have to choose it! I hope the trains here near me are fast enough!
