Venting If my situation won't change I'm gonna CTB and I have plan

[RadiantNumber]

My life is shit, shitty job, loans, debts. If this doesn't change I gonna CTB, those are my plans, I wish I won't freak out and at least do get something from beggining to the literally end. I don't think I can live this way much longer, even I do eventually I'll start to commit crimes to stay alive so my death would be better to society and me

I am thinking about something quick and painless: exit bag, CO, opioids / rc opioids / rc benzos overdose, hanging

 

[RadiantNumber]

I am also stuck in place I see everyone becoming better man and I live with the past
Even those who didn't wanted to live and develop they find job and peace where is my happy ending?
EDIT:
This will be post for my rants :)

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.

 

[RadiantNumber]

I hope you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.

Thanks <3 <3

I have new update cause my body want me to CTB, I have a dream when there was the end of the world and there was a bunker, my brother asked me if my company cover me this and I said that no, but I sneaked there anyway, in bunker there were my firends family etc.
What does this mean? I know, I sneaked into the life despite I should be there, my family, friends should live but I should die

 

[Six6Sick]

Thanks <3 <3

I have new update cause my body want me to CTB, I have a dream when there was the end of the world and there was a bunker, my brother asked me if my company cover me this and I said that no, but I sneaked there anyway, in bunker there were my firends family etc.
What does this mean? I know, I sneaked into the life despite I should be there, my family, friends should live but I should die

I'm not an expert on dreams but a bunker instantly reminds me of protection or even defense. Maybe you feel like you have to protect your family and friends from something?

 

[RadiantNumber]

I'm not an expert on dreams but a bunker instantly reminds me of protection or even defense. Maybe you feel like you have to protect your family and friends from something?

Idk, just my thought after this were: everybody should live and this, this is the end of the world, my world