If you are reading this, I catch the bus

[phoebie467]

I scheduled this post to be released 5 days after my CTB, giving me time to delete it in case something went wrong. If you're seeing this, it means everything went as planned, and I caught the bus.

You can check out the details of my plan here (that was also my goodbye thread).

I swapped out the clonazepam/diazepam drink for 20 mg of alprazolam, crushed and mixed with water. Based on my own tests, alprazolam worked better in everything.

I record a video of my final moments.

Spoiler: My Recorded CTB.

Apologies if the video hasn't been uploaded. Things like blackouts, internet issues, or other unexpected problems could have come up.

Here are the links where I've set up the video to be uploaded:

https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1-akF18vu-HtaHuXh9wsH6ZZiBbzerGFE?usp=sharing

https://www.dropbox.com/scl/fo/j1pm...ey=ll3c1lf095p6pol2g5g0pw6dl&st=4q8u5xg1&dl=0

I consent to the use of my image for educational purposes.

I hope this video answer some of your questions about the SN method.

It's possible the video is too large or long. If that's the case, I'd appreciate it if someone could edit and re-upload it.

I would like someone to write what happens in the video, especially to help those who are blind or have vision problems to know what happened.

If the video goes down, please reupload it, and make it public. I probably used a weak blur in the video or used something to preserve my identity.

I won't be leaving a farewell letter, but I want to share my favourite song:



I was born in 12/18/1995 and had a very happy childhood. I'm grateful to my family for that. But somewhere along the way, things just went off track.

I hope everything works out for everyone!

 

[Worndown]

Last time online was Monday!

 

[Kish]

Rest in peace <3

 

[Coringa]

Rest in peace

 

[MorsVoluntaria]

rest in peace

 

[Catch-22]

I think I got all the videos uploaded but I'm not sure. From what I can tell when they passed it was very peaceful. Rest in peace sweetheart

 

[BlackEyedDog]

i'm sorry life brought you to this. may you rest in peace.

 

[littletoomuch]

Rest in peace.

 

[ms_beaverhousen]

Omg... What a poor soul. So, so sorry...

 

[divinemistress36]

I couldnt access the videos , hope it was peaceful. RIP

 

[Plato'sCaveDweller]

Rest in peace. I hope you found what you were looking for in death.

Videos are also inaccessible for me. Not sure if it's safe to download, so I'll come back later. I hope it was peaceful.

 

[Catch-22]

Rest in peace. I hope you found what you were looking for in death.

Videos are also inaccessible for me. Not sure if it's safe to download, so I'll come back later. I hope it was peaceful.

Rest in peace. I hope you found what you were looking for in death.

Videos are also inaccessible for me. Not sure if it's safe to download, so I'll come back later. I hope it was peaceful.

I was able to view it on Dropbox. I'm not sure if they were able to record all of it but from what I did see it was very peaceful.

 

[GalacticWarrior777]

Godspeed.

 

[dela]

Também gosto bastante dessa do Titãs. A gente não conversou muito por aqui mas você sempre foi muito amigável. Obrigado por tudo. Espero que você esteja em paz agora.

I also really like this song. We only talked a few times but you were always very friendly and helpful. Thanks for everything. I hope you are at peace.

 

[Plato'sCaveDweller]

I was able to download it on Dropbox. I'm not sure if they were able to record all of it but from what I did see it was very peaceful.

Ah, the videos are viewable through dropbox, no download needed. Thank you.

After watching, it appears it was quite peaceful.

Events are as follows:
Unsure of when SN was ingested. Uneventful until retching at around 8:50. Vomiting at around 9:24. Unconsciousness at 14-15mins (Can't quite tell, going off of last arm movement). First agonal breathing at around 16mins. Final agonal breathing at around 46mins. I assume death followed shortly after.

I know phoebie requested someone to write about the timeline of events for those who can't view the video. But this is a start. I don't really feel like watching the video in depth, writing down every detail that I can see. But this is the general timeline.

They didn't appear to be in distress (benzos and propranolol definitely helping there). They weren't in agonizing sickness. They threw up only a few times, and it was during only one bout before they lay down to pass out. I'm not an expert, but to my eye I'd say that this is a case of when SN goes perfectly right. Little suffering, relatively quick to pass out, death in under an hour. Honestly, it was very similar to the recounts from the PPH.

Maybe someone else can fulfill phoebies wish for a proper recount of their experience.

 

[L'absent]

Have a safe trip darling. I'm sorry that it ended like this, but now all the suffering is over and biology (with its crazy existence and arrogance) has been disintegrated.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I hope you are at peace now.

 

[astr4]

rest well. i'm glad that your suffering has come to an end, i hope your soul is at peace.

 

[Reflection]

Rest in peace

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Rest in peace

 

[destinationlosangel]

rest in peace

 

[judestfrancis]

rest in peace, you deserve only the kindest passing

 

[SVEN]

Goodbye, rest well.

 

[rozeske]

I hope you are at peace now.

 

[butterflyguy]

Thank you for your service

 

[redkitsune98]

Vá em paz, amigo

 

[OldWound]

Looked painless and would consider it peaceful. I'm suprised there were no visible seizures. It looks like they're sleeping but later on in the video the breathing becomes abnormal (agonal breathing). The main video is bottom right.

 

[Thanatos.br]

Goodbye my friend, i wish you found peace

 

[reno883]

Rest in Peace my friend

 

[DanielDanDean]

Rest in peace ! Hope you'll never suffer anymore