Discussion If you could keep one memory from your current life, what would it be?

[Atropos]

Mine would be the time my sister nearly drowned at the beach when we were kids. I remember thinking she was faking it at first and swimming her to shore just to play along. She said I was her hero.

 

[Cowboy_Kid]

My mother's failed suprise gift for me - I was a huge art kid and growing up I really wanted a graphic tablet. We never had much money though, so I always thought that it will remain just a dream.
Well, one day, I was coming home from school - I don't remember why, but it was earlier than usual, maybe class was cancelled, I don't remember. I got off the bus, crossed the street...and there was my mother, in front of me, walking towards home, with a Wacom graphic tablet box in her hands. She never told me about it, so I figure it was supposed to be a suprise. We met then and there and I don't remember the rest (I don't have a lot of memories from my childhood) but I will never forget me seeing her with the Wacom box in her hand.
Never had a good relationship with her, but this memory...

 

[SomewhereAlongThe]

Snowball and my Nintendo DS. Snowball was a little white kitten we found wandering the hall and decided to take her in. She always came and slept on my bed, and was very attached to me. We were best friends <3 I also used to love to play video games, it kept me level headed. So I remember being at school on the playground near a grassy hill thinking about how badly I wanted to get back home to play my Nintendo DS and hang out with snowball.

 

[kopebaldy]

There was one time recently where I got off work early, PC gone, terminally shut in, didn't know where to go.

So I drove aimlessly and ended up at a small quiet corner of a park overlooking a river.

Sat there for a while, listened to some music and for a brief moment in time, my head finally shut up for once.

Tried to go back, didn't happen again, ever.

But yeah, that was a nice memory.

 

[fedup1982]

I can't think of anything. I guess I'd rather just forget everything to not have to keep going through memories

 

[-nobodyknows-]

In all honesty, I don't think I would want to remember anything. Whenever I think about something that could be considered a pleasant memory, it always leads me to think about how things later went wrong. All of my memories seem to be corrupted in this manner. I don't find any happiness in the past. I can't think of a single thing that I did not mess up in some way. All of my "genuine relationships" with other people have gone poorly, and I feel like a pretender when I think about those more casual connections.

I know that this is a bit of a "me problem", but it is unfortunately the way I feel about my life. I can't think of a single event or relationship where my presence could be considered a good thing in the grand scheme of things.

 

[darksouls]

all memories make me sad
I just dont want to exist anymore
any consciousness causes me suffering

 

[Rynalia]

Nothing.

I don't want to have anything to anchor me down, good nor bad. Once I die, either by natural causes or my own hand, that's the end of the story.

 

[FuneralCry]

None, I don't wish to remember anything about this torturous, futile existence I always saw as a mistake, existence to me is an abomination I'd prefer to forget about no matter what, I'd be so relieved to never exist again.

I just wish to be unconscious for all eternity where I'm no longer burdened with this cruel, deeply undesirable existence of unnecessary suffering that I never would had chosen, if it's up to me I'd choose to erase this existence, I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me in non-existence with no more pain and no more suffering.

 

[Unicron]

I'm 44 and can't think of a single thing I'd like to remember. I really have no positive memories at all. Life has been exceptionally bleak for me.

 

[DanielDanDean]

I wasn't really into girls because I was a) Ugly AF b) terminally geek
but after puberty hit and getting into alcohol and drugs to cope with anxiety and an overall shitty life this one girl got somehow attracted to me when I was 15 years old.
Textbook bombshell kind of girl, everything you could dream of at that age and she was into me, drinking and spending time with me.
One day when we got to Paris together for some drunkscapade and during that day out of the blue as we were taking the metro in the Abbesses station that girl catches me by the arm, pins me to a sign and kisses me, THE kiss.
That kiss sent me so high, never was I so high.

It triggered a craving in me, a craving for love.
Most of my insecurities about my appearance kinda disappeared for some months but I never lived this high even with my long term relationship.

On the flip side if that kiss never happened I'd never have chased love like I did, but THIS is the only memory I want to keep.

 

[theboy]

Money Tip

 

[FadingSnowFake]

Sitting on my partner's lap, sharing a joint, being completely in the moment, not wanting to be anywhere else or with anyone else on the planet, knowing this person is the only one who really knows everything about me, and still loves me. However, only want to remember this if there is no reincarnation. If there is a possibility of choosing another life after this or not, I don't want to remember anything good because I don't want to come back to even a possibility of this hell of not being with this very same person all over again.

 

[Ligottian]

The title of this thread reminds me of some lines from the the Joy Division song "Twenty Four Hours".

Just for one moment I thought I'd found my way/Destiny unfolded/I watched it slip away!

 

[22yearsbroken]

The day in the doctors...my ex having her ultra sound and i heard my daughters heart beat... despite her telling me it was not mine.. then years later she told me it WAS mine.. ill will always remeber that day ...that sound ive never so at peace and so in love than that day... when i go that will be the day i want to re-live for all of eternity despite knowing the 22 years ive been broken id still live that day

 

[YandereMikuMistress]

I don't know,, I don't want another life,, it's cruel, it almost made me cry knowing you want to remember your sister calling you a hero,, I've got four older brothers and I've had moments like that and when eldest brother would save me from getting beat up and spat on or pulled by my hair by my other brothers until he wasn't there to save me anymore,, he would get pinned and choked against a wall for helping me at times because,, I don't know why,, my dad's done that to all of us, whatever the past only gets worse

 

[bankai]

The day in the doctors...my ex having her ultra sound and i heard my daughters heart beat... despite her telling me it was not mine.. then years later she told me it WAS mine.. ill will always remeber that day ...that sound ive never so at peace and so in love than that day... when i go that will be the day i want to re-live for all of eternity despite knowing the 22 years ive been broken id still live that day

Why couldn't you do a paternity test?

 

[UnusedGate]

Laughing with friends.

 

[YandereMikuMistress]

I wasn't really into girls because I was a) Ugly AF b) terminally geek
but after puberty hit and getting into alcohol and drugs to cope with anxiety and an overall shitty life this one girl got somehow attracted to me when I was 15 years old.
Textbook bombshell kind of girl, everything you could dream of at that age and she was into me, drinking and spending time with me.
One day when we got to Paris together for some drunkscapade and during that day out of the blue as we were taking the metro in the Abbesses station that girl catches me by the arm, pins me to a sign and kisses me, THE kiss.
That kiss sent me so high, never was I so high.

It triggered a craving in me, a craving for love.
Most of my insecurities about my appearance kinda disappeared for some months but I never lived this high even with my long term relationship.

On the flip side if that kiss never happened I'd never have chased love like I did, but THIS is the only memory I want to keep.

That's beautiful and bittersweet,, I was never a bombshell but I was okay looking I didn't wear makeup and I dressed like a hard care tomboy unless I was hidden inside my room but made me think of my current partner, they came back into my life after they moved away got into a relationship for a few years and one day while I was still trapped in my hometown he messaged and started talking about the past and reminded me of a similar story,, I don't think he really even knew how much I liked him until one day at the skate park these girls as always where all over him and I just waltzed over to him smiling at the girls because idk I could be pretty cocky not to the girls but I was smiling at them like I wanted to talk to them but I get there and grab him by the scruff of his shirt and pull him into a kiss and then let go and walk away, mabye I shouldn't have done that but he tells me it's something he likes to remember, I'm gald he does too,, but I'm afraid he never knew me because,, well,, he didn't,, after he came back into my life again he would tell me how perfect and put together I seemed and how he thought I oozed goodness and positivity,,, it's because I never ever let anyone get actually close enough to me for that reality check to idk click in there head,,
That I'm honestly everything you can hate...

I'm 44 and can't think of a single thing I'd like to remember. I really have no positive memories at all. Life has been exceptionally bleak for me.

I dont want to allow myself to get to that age in my life,, it's been bleak you and that's all it's ever been for me too,, I'm only 21 right now and I've got no real belief in anything,, I'm sorry the word has only cursed you from what it seems,, yea I understand idk liking some memories cherishing certain things but I can't confidentially say
"that's what id wanna remember"

 

[22yearsbroken]

Why couldn't you do a paternity test?

I knew what what true and so did she .. but she had cheated on me so wasnt sure...but i still went.. now i see my girl growing up with 4 dads now not including me.. for me to turn up in her life now.. it not right.. im terminally ill and ahe is happy why ..mess her up and ruin qhat ahe has with her mum cos it would cause kaos... life suck but her life and her happiness is all that i care about in my life... if im not apart of it and it makes her happy.. i can live with that no matter the pain...

Laughing with friends.

When you finally grow up and have a set of nuts and maybe have grown some hair down there you can comment about adult issues untill then.. fuck back to your room and play .. cu t
I so belive that we do grow through our mistakes and big ass fuck ups some times thery are due to us just being us.. sometimes there is the outside influence we csnt controle .. we do what we do pain ... is pain.. we have history and we all have secrets ...i have many from time ...but
Probably the ones that has got us to this point is the regrets are the ones that hurt most for us the ines unspoken....
Ive tried in my life to explain my past my time i served and my daughter my childhood but its hard for others to umderstand a life that has a mind that should of been stuck at uni doin more than that has been burnt and turtured by my actions and my failure to act or the actions was orderd to take....
I failed my daughter
I failed my myself
I just failed.

 

[Eriktf]

i dont want to be aware of any think not even good memorys when im dead

 

[PI3.14]

I wish to keep none. My life was a complete tragedy.

 

[Ashu]

The first time I made love to girlfriend number five.

 

[jbdCkFqV]

I know I have good, positive memories but nothing stands out as worth keeping and savoring. I even have a memory where I thought "yeah, this is a good moment," but I don't care to keep even that.

 

[25jiyuki]

kissing another girl for the first time

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

nothing ever. any supposed pleasurable garbage i hate the most because it's that crap that kept me deluded and distracted from reality and now i'm in a huge trap because of those "oh just fun good video yum yum yum food " bullshit as if that is worth even 60 seconds of the worst constant worst pain .

if i had gotten some disease that caused constant pain every second but it wasn't unbearable pain but just pain so that i would still be able to sleep a little and on top i had sleeping problems cause of the pain. then maybe after a few months of the constant pain i might have gotten a clue to how horrible life is and i probably wouldn't be here now as i would have killed myself. so i would prefer that becauuse i wouldn''t be here now. and i don't want to be here now i want to be Dead (non-existence forever). i would have rather suffered a year with pain if it would have gotten me the clarity and courage to finally take action and do it . my top goal is my suicide asap nothing else matters.

i don't have the words to describe how much i hate living and this evil world . non-existence forever is the ultimate bliss.