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C_F

C_F

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A little positivity - why not? :)
 
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TearyEyedQueen

TearyEyedQueen

In the wrong timeline
Nov 14, 2019
366
Sadly, I think this last year might have been the worst year in my life.
But if I try to pull something positive out of it...
Enrollment into college I wanted
 
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C_F

Experienced
Jul 31, 2019
242
Sadly, I think this last year might have been the worst year in my life.
But if I try to pull something positive out of it...
Enrollment into college I wanted

Congratulations - that's a big accomplishment! Are you going to attend?
 
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TearyEyedQueen

TearyEyedQueen

In the wrong timeline
Nov 14, 2019
366
Congratulations - that's a big accomplishment! Are you going to attend?
Yes, in fact right now I'm in first year :)
I like it but it's a struggle. However I will fight to pass till the beginning of summer, at least.
 
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Squiddy

Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
5,903
Making new friends and trying weed for the first time
 
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End Piece

Student
Oct 4, 2019
107
Going to PEI, and a new relationship.
 
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Little Mook

Little Mook

Member
Oct 20, 2019
88
Just moments when I can appreciate things by myself or with others. Lots of good walks with my dog. Playing records for the first time. Seeing ppl really smile.
What about you OP ?
 
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BPD Barbie

BPD Barbie

Visionary
Dec 1, 2019
2,361
Visiting Germany, Romania, Italy and Holland.
 
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DepressionsAHo

DepressionsAHo

Heaven gained a new ho
Feb 15, 2019
831
My trip to Jamaica. That one kiss I shared with a gorgeous stranger who I met on the side of the road in Kingston. We took the bus to Portland and strangers kept asking if we were engaged lmao. We ended up staying 2 nights together going to the beaches, holding hands. I got completely smashed and he ended up having to carry me to bed and missed a party to watch over me lol. It was perfect and all the other guests at the hostel I was staying at kept telling us to get married.
I also would have missed bamboo rafting across the river. Climbing waterfalls. Frenchman cove beach, that one lady In Jamaica who went hours out of her way to help me navigate Kingston, getting authentic presents for my family. The Bob Marley museum. Swinging across the rivers with a rope you had to do a full balancing act on.
Meeting a black king who was doing dope ass shit and was a surgeon #blackexcelence
Meeting my second mom who was this short ball of energy that loved me to pieces.
This is one of the pieces I got for my sister. I scribbled her name out but the guy makes them out of hollowed out fruit. They dry it out then carve the fruit out and then they carve designs on it too. It says Jamaica on it and he insisted on carving my sister's name on it. Then they attach handles to it so you can wear it as a small purse
 

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Goodbye
Oct 23, 2019
277
This might sound kind of weird. But I took in an abused chicken. She was in rough shape. I had no idea what I was doing but she had nowhere else to go so I couldn't turn my back on her. I nursed her completely back to health. She would've died if I didn't take her. Now she's happy and healthy. This past year has been so hard for me but that one thing made it worth living through.
 
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MissNietzsche

Specialist
Aug 1, 2019
343
There is only one thing good that happened to me this year really..I went on the best first date of my life

Also, there were brief periods of time when I was happy with my ex, but my ex also brought the most amount of pain to me than any other factor this year, so it's hard to think about him in a good light this year. If you asked me this question last year, I definitely would have said, "I'm so happy I didn't kill myself, because I met him"..but now I regret not doing it when I had the chance haha. Being cheated on by someone you loved, even if it was just microcheating, is the worst possible thing I could ever experience. I want to die every time I think about what went through his head while he was messaging her..

And while things don't look like they're going anywhere, at least not now, with the guy that took me on that first date this year...he literally took me to Disneyland, a restaurant there that I have dreamed about going to since I was a little kid, and another restaurant that I have dreamed about going to since about a year ago or so haha. I really liked him too; our personalities were super compatible. Unfortunately, I'm not in a position to date anyone right now, especially because I'm too fat, and also he stopped talking to me regularly anyway because his friend died, and he fell depressed..but that was definitely a magical day. I still can't believe it happened...or that he did that for me on a freaking first date (we met online)

EDIT: Also, there was a brief moment post plastic surgery when I felt pretty..but my surgery didn't end up too good as time progressed, so rip to that

oh wait, I did reach my goal weight of 105 pounds! Of course, I maintained it for like two hours before exploding back 45 pounds, but for a split second, that was a fleeting high to reach my first goal weight

SECOND EDIT: OMG, I'M SUCH AN IDIOT!! HOW CAN I FORGET!?! THE NUMBER ONE BEAUTIFUL THING IS THAT I MET AND SAVED MY CAT, KIKI!!! SHE WAS A STARVING, LONESOME KITTEN, AND NOW SHE IS MY ANGEL!!!!
 
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MelancholyPie

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Nov 29, 2019
28
I wouldn't have met the guy I like, and some other cool friends I've made this year
 
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Hydrokhoos

Hydrokhoos

Member
Dec 1, 2019
68
I conquered my fear of volcanoes and simultaneously added and checked "drink a beer on top of an active volcano" off my bucket list.

I got to fly in a two seater plane within 50 feet of the top of another one, over 14000 ft. The pilot said it's usually too windy to do so it was a rare experience, even for him. The view was gorgeous.

I met and am now working with my hero. I've met some pretty cool people and had some great experiences along the way.
This might sound kind of weird. But I took in an abused chicken. She was in rough shape. I had no idea what I was doing but she had nowhere else to go so I couldn't turn my back on her. I nursed her completely back to health. She would've died if I didn't take her. Now she's happy and healthy. This past year has been so hard for me but that one thing made it worth living through.
This is so wholesome, I love it. The heart react wasn't enough to express how happy this made me to read. :)
 
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EmptyArms

Student
Dec 1, 2019
148
This might sound kind of weird. But I took in an abused chicken. She was in rough shape. I had no idea what I was doing but she had nowhere else to go so I couldn't turn my back on her. I nursed her completely back to health. She would've died if I didn't take her. Now she's happy and healthy. This past year has been so hard for me but that one thing made it worth living through.
You know what, that really doesnt sound weird to me. A sentient being really, really needed you and despite probably having very little of yourself to spare you committed to being a chicken mama! Haha thank you for reminding me that I can find meaning and purpose if only I can remember to be outward looking instead of always obsessively looking in at my own misery. Everyone should get sick chickens. X
 
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C_F

C_F

Experienced
Jul 31, 2019
242
I conquered my fear of volcanoes and simultaneously added and checked "drink a beer on top of an active volcano" off my bucket list.

I got to fly in a two seater plane within 50 feet of the top of another one, over 14000 ft. The pilot said it's usually too windy to do so it was a rare experience, even for him. The view was gorgeous.

I met and am now working with my hero. I've met some pretty cool people and had some great experiences along the way.

This is so wholesome, I love it. The heart react wasn't enough to express how happy this made me to read. :)

Wow! So many amazing things have gone on with you this year!
 
Moonicide

Moonicide

ᴘʜᴀꜱᴇꜱ ᴏꜰ ᴛʜᴇ ᴍᴏᴏɴ
Nov 19, 2019
802
Not meeting my best friend. Not loving or knowing new people. Would have missed out on traveling as well.
 
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Mizzmini45

Arcanist
Dec 1, 2019
447
joyride in Miami with my twin sister and group of my friends
nice thread btw :)
A little positivity - why not? :)
very nice thread btw :)
 
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TheDevilsAngel

LetMeFree
Apr 22, 2019
768
My beautiful children growing up for another year :heart:
 
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ValideSultana

Student
Dec 2, 2019
119
Same thing I said in another thread. Going to the beach, laying in the sea with my arms folded behind my head, and my feet folded. The sea cradles me. It can almost rock me to sleep. I look up at the sky and it's so peaceful.
 
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Numbtopain97

deader than dead
Aug 10, 2019
443
I would have missed Avengers Endgame
 
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ninthhokage

ninthhokage

Member
Nov 8, 2019
82
Graduating.
 
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WhiteDespair

WhiteDespair

The Temporary Problem is Life
Oct 24, 2019
837
Trolling porn stars was fun.
 
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Nem

Nem

Drs suck mega ass!
Sep 3, 2018
1,489
The death would've been the beautiful part that I did miss out on :(
Peace/hugs
 
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Rotten thing

Member
Nov 14, 2019
34
Talking to my friend on the phone while she is rocking her new born baby to sleep and listen to his tiny sighs. Holding that baby even if I was freaking out about hurting him somehow. Dreaming of carrying my own baby and waking up happy about that dream. Feeling the night breeze go through my hair for the first time in almost 14 years. Getting my hair falt ironed for the first time ever and hating it beacause it is just too flat. Reading Harry Potter and falling in love with the magical world. Watching tv shows that I just liked even if they were silly or lame like This Is Us and Peaky Blinders.
 
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Azzy69

Azzy69

-
Aug 8, 2019
605
discovering Bob Dylan
 
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LegaliseIt!

LegaliseIt!

Elementalist
Nov 29, 2019
808
Zilch.
 
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mattwitt

# 978
Jun 28, 2018
2,307
I'm glad I got to see Avengers End Game and some other movies.
 
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Seagirl

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Feb 26, 2019
58
Nothing. Just more failure
 
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NeCkDeEp

NeCkDeEp

Experienced
Nov 30, 2019
285
I'd have missed seeing my fave band for the second time live
 
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V0latile

And God decreed, “Coronavirus spread forth!”
Sep 24, 2019
234
If I had died, I would've missed out on a lot of suffering
 
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