If you had one week left to live

[leandra]

How would you spend those last 7 days? I came across this questions many time but i never really gave it much thought. Tho, now i think ive gotten my answer. Personally, i wouldn't do anything differently. Id go on about my day, go to uni, spend time with friends, prepare for my lectures, etc... i mean why would you spend the last days of your life doing anything different? Most of the answers i received from people were something along the line of "id spend my last days trying new things, traveling, trying new cuisine..."
To me it wouldn't matter anymore. Why would you do anything really if you're not gonna be there to recall these memories, if you're not gonna be here to share them with your friends and family, if your not gonna ponder on the live you lived. You cant just do something for the sake of just pleasure. That's no way to live

 

[ForeverCaHa]

If it were due to illness, I'd go travel as much as possible. I would want to return to the cities I've lived in over the years, eat the local foods one last time, reminisce and enjoy the scenery. However, with a CTB death in plan, the depression keeps me locked away in my room. This is prospectively my final week, and I haven't done anything of note at all.

 

[pauly369]

I have no bucket list because nothing interests me anymore.
I also feel no pleasure in anything anymore because of anhedonia.
Im an alcoholic and I do miss drinking though, simply because it puts me into that sweet state of oblivion.
So on my last week alive Id just get constantly hammered on booze.

 

[SomewhatLoved]

I think April 10th or around that time I might attempt, so that gives me just over a week.

What am I doing with it? filing taxes, working, writing letters. Nothing fun. It doesn't feel that much different from any other week, I'm continuing to fulfill my responsibilities as required.

Maybe I'll treat myself to a nice meal or something, but that would pretty much be it. I used to have a big list of things I would do, and it pretty much boiled down to spending one more nice day with my (now former) boyfriend. I don't really have anything I enjoy anymore, though.

 

[dust-in-the-wind]

I would do nothing(severely depressed)except say good bye to loved ones.

 

[Tombs_in_your_eyes]

I'd make the time as meaningful as possible for the people I'm leaving behind.

Assuming I've already completed all my death admin, schedule sent letters to everyone I love, and compiled a USB stick of memories for the people who will miss me the most, I'd spend the time on the phone to people or doing things with them in person. I would reminisce with them about times we've shared. I would tell them I love them. Basically, leaving them with as many good memories of our relationship as possible.

Then I'd spend the last 48 hours in isolation to stabilise myself ready for the act.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

"To me it wouldn't matter anymore. Why would you do anything really if you're not gonna be there to recall these memories,"

we are all going to die and not remember anything we did in our lives. after Death is non-existence forever

what that we do this year will matter in 150 years, in 500 years? in 10,000 years ? in a trillion years? nothing

i just want to avoid extreme suffering for me until permanent non-existence saves me from any future suffering .

 

[Freebandzgang]

Im gonna catch the bus tomorrow, have spent my last week suffering, done nothing different. I dont want to worry anyone. I just want peace.

 

[Namelesa]

"To me it wouldn't matter anymore. Why would you do anything really if you're not gonna be there to recall these memories,"

we are all going to die and not remember anything we did in our lives. after Death is non-existence forever

what that we do this year will matter in 150 years, in 500 years? in 10,000 years ? in a trillion years? nothing

i just want to avoid extreme suffering for me until non-existence saves me from any future suffering .

Sure it would not matter in the future but I would matter in the now. Obviously you don't have to do anything special before ctb but might as well make it easier to get through life before you get an opportunity to ctb.

Tho as you said in previous posts that can be a trap to have you stay here despite death being better if you want guaranteed permanent non suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd personally just be relieved that the suffering is coming to end for me and I'd try to sleep for the remaning time left as after all sleeping is the closest to not existing and I only hope to be unconscious and unaware of this existence I always saw as a mistake, I see it as a burden to exist and it's a burden that just causes suffering.
I'd never wish to suffer in this torturous, futile existence rather I just wish for non-existence, I just wish to be permanently unconscious with no more pain, no more suffering, I just never should had been burdened with this existence at all and for me non-existence really is all that's positive. I'd never wish to exist under any circumstances rather I just hope for some peace, ceasing to exist really is the only relief for me and is all I hope for as I always have so much dread for what lies ahead in this existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel and I find it horrific how one can exist for so long just to be tortured by old age.

 

[leandra]

"To me it wouldn't matter anymore. Why would you do anything really if you're not gonna be there to recall these memories,"

we are all going to die and not remember anything we did in our lives. after Death is non-existence forever

what that we do this year will matter in 150 years, in 500 years? in 10,000 years ? in a trillion years? nothing

i just want to avoid extreme suffering for me until permanent non-existence saves me from any future suffering .

It would matter to you if you're gonna live an average length live. Your actions would have meanings to you. Thing dont need to make a cosmic sense to have a decent life

I'd personally just be relieved that the suffering is coming to end for me and I'd try to sleep for the remaning time left as after all sleeping is the closest to not existing and I only hope to be unconscious and unaware of this existence I always saw as a mistake, I see it as a burden to exist and it's a burden that just causes suffering.
I'd never wish to suffer in this torturous, futile existence rather I just wish for non-existence, I just wish to be permanently unconscious with no more pain, no more suffering, I just never should had been burdened with this existence at all and for me non-existence really is all that's positive. I'd never wish to exist under any circumstances rather I just hope for some peace, ceasing to exist really is the only relief for me and is all I hope for as I always have so much dread for what lies ahead in this existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel and I find it horrific how one can exist for so long just to be tortured by old age.

"Id never wish to exist under any circumstances"
Don't you thing that is just depression altering your thoughts? Normally no person would wish to not exist under *any* circumstances

 

[LimpandNumb]

I'd like to go on a hot air balloon ride and spend time with people I care about.

 

[eeah]

quit my job, spend a few days over at my friends. hang out with the rest of my irls at least a little bit. try and get my high school friends together one more time. probably play some games online with my brother since hes pretty far away. visit my other friend whose a bit further away for a day. maybe even visit a couple of my online friends. make some bead lizards for people. write some notes. give all my passwords and shit to probably my brother. sounds like a nice time actually i wish i could do all that before ending it but i couldnt since i might chicken out

the only reason im really alive is because of my friends and stuff even tho my friendships really aren't all that deep tbh. but it just makes sense id wanna get as much of that stuff in while i could. im not into travelling or whatever

 

[divinemistress36]

Do all the drugs. Thats all I can come up with

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

It would matter to you if you're gonna live an average length live. Your actions would have meanings to you. Thing dont need to make a cosmic sense to have a decent life

"Id never wish to exist under any circumstances"
Don't you thing that is just depression altering your thoughts? Normally no person would wish to not exist under *any* circumstances

only i know what is in my brain and what my situation is .

you or someone else can have meaning or want to do things , it doesn't matter to me what others do or think .

why does something need to have meaning for me ? what ?

why do i need to see anything as having meaning being important? nothing is to me and no one can convince me why anything in this hell has meaning .the only things that have meaning to me is avoiding unbearable pain and my suicide asap.

why do i have to want to do something or like something ? i don't have to do anything .

all i want is to avoid my pain and my suffering and to do my suicide asap

why do i have to live another minute or want to live?

why do i have to want to live under some circumstances?

what is so fun or important that i have to do it to risk Suffering or pain which can be so unbearable it's a trillion times worse than can be imagined? i will never believe anything is worth the worst pain

nobody knows my situation. i could be in the worst nightmare or facing the worst torture.

these pleasurable addictions i see as only bait and distractions for the worst torture.

to me nothing matters except avoiding unbearable pain and my suicide asap

i will never want to live in this evil imposition , this evil life evil prison world ever .

you or someone else can have meaning or want to do things , it doesn't matter to me what others do or think .

what am i just cells , chemical reactions , but also a brain that can suffer unending constant unbearable pain for no reason. how is that something good important ? it isn't to me.

but i don't see meaning to anything except what i posted above under any circumstances.

 

[NoMoreSanity]

only i know what is in my brain and what my situation is .

you or someone else can have meaning or want to do things , it doesn't matter to me what others do or think .

why does something need to have meaning for me ? what ?

why do i need to see anything as having meaning being important? nothing is to me and no one can convince me why anything in this hell has meaning .the only things that have meaning to me is avoiding unbearable pain and my suicide asap.

why do i have to want to do something or like something ? i don't have to do anything .

all i want is to avoid my pain and my suffering and to do my suicide asap

why do i have to live another minute or want to live?

why do i have to want to live under some circumstances?

what is so fun or important that i have to do it to risk Suffering or pain can be so unbearable it's a trillion times worse than can be imagined? i will never believe anything is worth the worst pain

nobody knows my situation. i could be in the worst nightmare or facing the worst torture.

these pleasurable addictions i see as only bait and distractions for the worst torture.

to me nothing matters except avoiding unbearable pain and my suicide asap

i will never want to live in this evil imposition , this evil life evil prison world ever .

you or someone else can have meaning or want to do things , it doesn't matter to me what others do or think .

what am i just cells , chemical reactions , but also a brain that can suffer unending constant unbearable pain for no reason. how is that something good important ? it isn't to me.

but i don't see meaning to anything except what i posted above under any circumstances.

Ive began to accept this as my truth as well more recently

 

[AuroraB]

If I only had one full week? 3 days scuba diving in the tropics followed by 3 days in the Arctic looking for the Aurora Borealis. One full day would be all the flights.

 

[heatdeath]

If it were due to illness, I'd go travel as much as possible. I would want to return to the cities I've lived in over the years, eat the local foods one last time, reminisce and enjoy the scenery.

Same. Travel, eat, and especially drink as much as possible