Discussion If you were diagnosed with cancer?

[Ntothed]

would you end your life that was filled with pain and suffering? or would you let cancer decide when you would die?

 

[ReadyasEver]

Well this is me and it is terminal. I've responded well and body is fighting, but it's only a matter of time. I will go out on my own terms, my overall health has helped me get things in order. But sometime in the future as it moves on, I will CTB and give cancer the middle finger.

 

[LastDay]

Well this is me and it is terminal. I've responded well and body is fighting, but it's only a matter of time. I will go out on my own terms, my overall health has helped me get things in order. But sometime in the future as it moves on, I will CTB and give cancer the middle finger.

I would love some insight on what it's like if you're open to talking about it.

What kind of cancer?
Are you doing any treatment or medication?
What's the progression like physically and emotionally?
Why not wait for it to take you?

 

[Sixfeetunder]

I would ctb. I hate being sick, and cancer is truly awful. Plus if my family found out, they'd probably pressure me into getting treatment.

 

[Sixfeetunder]

Well this is me and it is terminal. I've responded well and body is fighting, but it's only a matter of time. I will go out on my own terms, my overall health has helped me get things in order. But sometime in the future as it moves on, I will CTB and give cancer the middle finger.

*hugs*

There's no words... I'm just so sorry you have to go through that.

 

[ReadyasEver]

Pancreatic that has spread. I responded very well to treatment but it is not completely gone. My pancreas is still functioning well. I still have an appetite and can do a lot of things. I look and act very normally, I took 4 mile walk the other day, and was fine. It will not last forever though. My decision became personal. I will not watch my family watch me die. I have started to bring up the statement, that when it progresses, I hope it is fast. Everyone is in agreement also.

 

[Ntothed]

Pancreatic that has spread. I responded very well to treatment but it is not completely gone. My pancreas is still functioning well. I still have an appetite and can do a lot of things. I look and act very normally, I took 4 mile walk the other day, and was fine. It will not last forever though. My decision became personal. I will not watch my family watch me die. I have started to bring up the statement, that when it progresses, I hope it is fast. Everyone is in agreement also.

Truly inspirational, I don't believe I would be able to go through with treatment if I get diagnosed. I'm going for a endoscopy early next week and I do not have a good feeling about it.

 

[Buddyluv19]

It is a taboo topic for many. I haven't even told many people about it. Mine was cervical which is considered very treatable - as long as it is caught early. Still, there is a lot to consider with a diagnosis. I hope you don't have to deal with it.

 

[TAW122]

This one is a no brainer for me. I would definitely ctb. Knowing how people are treated in hospice and end of life care (unless you have the best doctors, healthcare professionals, and will cost you many more than your limbs, plus more) as well as the nature of the disease, I'd rather not go through such agony, even if it is for a finite time (<6 months). Plus, I don't see anything great in suffering for that long just to appease the pro-lifers and be viewed as a 'fighter' instead of a quitter. I couldn't give two shits what others think of me, so I'd rather say fuck cancer and eat the bullet/pellets.

 

[deathbycakes]

i'd let it kill me

 

[Kyrok]

I have a colleague who has had cancer 3 times in the past decade... prostate cancer, bladder cancer, bowel cancer. Chemo, surgery, radiation each time. His wife divorced him & he is deep in debt.

We had dinner a few days ago (I picked up the check). He's ok with his life, with his salary (half mine), and just deals with his health without it getting to him. He's a practicing Buddhist btw.

 

[Buddyluv19]

I have a colleague who has had cancer 3 times in the past decade... prostate cancer, bladder cancer, bowel cancer. Chemo, surgery, radiation each time. His wife divorced him & he is deep in debt.

We had dinner a few days ago (I picked up the check). He's ok with his life, with his salary (half mine), and just deals with his health without it getting to him. He's a practicing Buddhist btw.

This is where I really admire practicing Buddhists. I've known a few. They are centered for the most part. One was faced with a terrible situation and dealt with it calmly for the most part.

Having said this, Cancer has a different impact for each person. It can be physically, mentally, and financially draining as we know. My hope for anyone is, that if there is a diagnosis, one has good support if he/she wants to live and peace if the decision is otherwise.

 

[TheRiverStyz]

So first of all I would refuse treatments. Then use all the money that would go to treatments and use it to complete my bucket list. Then if I don't die as quickly as I'd hope, CTB it is.

 

[Lost]

I had thyroid cancer and if it comes back and pain get to much I definitely would CTB

 

[EmoIsNotAPhase]

I'm waiting to see if I have brain if I do im not going to fight it but just let it overcome me it would be perfect I die at a young age from brain cancer instead of suffering through it

 

[Titania]

I wouldn't know because I don't have any terminal illness luckily. But my grandma died from liver and colon cancer. I could imagine the pain and mess of trying to live was for her. I lived with her every moment when she was in that pain. The radiation totally destroyed her feeling in her nerves and health taking neurology treatments which were expensive. It's very sad to see someone you love being destroyed by something like that. My dad is even right now suffering from stage 3 prostate cancer and seeing the life be drained from him on top of his epilepsy, having to go through expensive treatments is painful. It's completely understandable for someone who is going through cancer to wish for death, so yes. I would if it's my time to go.

 

[Pulpit2018]

I am not going to wait for any cancer...

 

[Othermind]

I quit smoking when I was 18 and now I deeply regret it because I can't get back into it and it had a very good chance of cutting my life short.
But yeah, I'd refuse all kind of treatment and let it kill me. I already hate myself enough, I'll be damned if I live my last days wasting precious resources that could go to someone who deserved them more.

 

[21Neberg]

What bothers me is that there are so many people who love life yet get horrible diseases such as cancer, yet I fucking hate life but I get a perfectly healthy body and no disease. Why can't I get the cancer, instead of someone who does want to live? It's unfair.

 

[Idorus]

If I was a terminal case I would definitely go to the end-of-clinic in my country in time. No doubt I would get euthanasia then (my preferred injectable way out). If even the number of mentally ill getting green light keeps increasing every year then this wouldn't be a question.

ps; I might go as well if it wasn't terminal (had c before 1,5 decade ago).. I mean, there's a limit to what one can bear.

 

[couragetodie]

I have a rare bone marrow cancer that progresses slowly. My inability to manage my emotional response to it put me over the edge. It's just one more thing on my long list of reasons to ctb.

 

[Bread]

For me suicide has always been a bit about control. If I was diagnosed with a terminal illness I would like to think that I would kill myself before it killed me. Go out on my own choice and give it the middle finger. But since I've never been life threateningly ill, I probably lack insight as to what it's actually like, and so it probably wouldn't be that simple.