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Neroidism
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- Sep 25, 2024
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I prefer the latter.
I've always felt an overwhelming sense of dread talking to people, because against any logic, I can't shake off the feeling that they'd rather see me hang myself than put up with me. I can't help it, and I end up feeling as though the only place I belong is in my room. I still try my best to talk, but I never really feel any better.
I mainly just find the latter to be more appealing because of a personal preference. They tick a similar curiosity in my head that I have with people, but I feel safer. Do they live with emotional purpose other than to survive and reproduce? If so, why? What's it like to be so slow? Is it painful? What's it like to carry a shell everywhere you go? Do you ever feel as though your brittle shell is useless against most forces? What's it like to be in the rain? Have kids ever bullied you out of curiosity? Picked at you with sticks? Poured little grains of salt on you to see if you'd dry up? Much like humans, there are a lot of interesting questions to noodle on, but it feels more comforting to me, in a way. It feels almost cozy. I can't quite word it right, but it feels cozy in a similar way to how being in a womb would seem cozy.
It's an interesting question to noodle on, and I'd like to hear other thoughts on it.
I've always felt an overwhelming sense of dread talking to people, because against any logic, I can't shake off the feeling that they'd rather see me hang myself than put up with me. I can't help it, and I end up feeling as though the only place I belong is in my room. I still try my best to talk, but I never really feel any better.
I mainly just find the latter to be more appealing because of a personal preference. They tick a similar curiosity in my head that I have with people, but I feel safer. Do they live with emotional purpose other than to survive and reproduce? If so, why? What's it like to be so slow? Is it painful? What's it like to carry a shell everywhere you go? Do you ever feel as though your brittle shell is useless against most forces? What's it like to be in the rain? Have kids ever bullied you out of curiosity? Picked at you with sticks? Poured little grains of salt on you to see if you'd dry up? Much like humans, there are a lot of interesting questions to noodle on, but it feels more comforting to me, in a way. It feels almost cozy. I can't quite word it right, but it feels cozy in a similar way to how being in a womb would seem cozy.
It's an interesting question to noodle on, and I'd like to hear other thoughts on it.