PrincessMeow
I want to sleep forever
- Nov 21, 2023
- 31
I'm from India. We have too much cut-throat competition here due to overpopulation, less resources and development, and corruption. To have access to a decent life in India (by decent I mean buying your own flat in a tier 2 city, able to afford basic amenities without hesitation and affording healthcare without a hole in pocket) you need to have either of these 3 things:
1. Political power
2. Money
3. Great academic success
I was born in a middle class, very normal family so I don't have the former two. About the third...
I bombed my college entrance exams and got into a real shitty college in a tier 2 city, that too in electronics engineering program (mind you, there's very little scope for electronics in India). My parents were hellbent on me taking engineering, and also would beat me, pressurize me into getting good grades since I was little. I had 95% in 10th grade, and my downfall started from there. I understand my parents expectations in a third world country is for my own good, but now I shiver at the slightest thought of failure.
Anyways, I once again bombed my first semester, with a 6.2 sgpa out of 10. And a backlog in Maths exam. Tomorrow is my mathematics re exam, and I couldn't prepare for it at all as I got severely sick. I can't tell my parents either, I'm going to fail miserably tomorrow and I can't think of anything other than suicide.
My luck also has always been really bad. My university is a shitty one where the papers they check are so fucking random. My friends passed in maths despite having less studied than me. I know someone who got a 7.0 sgpa despite not studying at all. The checkers may sometimes grant marks based on how many pages you filled, and this 7.0 friend of mine filled entire answer copy with 9th grade formulas.
Because of overpopulation, academic failure is a huge setback as your opportunities to get a job is nearly zero. Once you graduate, your failures haunt you forever.
1. Political power
2. Money
3. Great academic success
I was born in a middle class, very normal family so I don't have the former two. About the third...
I bombed my college entrance exams and got into a real shitty college in a tier 2 city, that too in electronics engineering program (mind you, there's very little scope for electronics in India). My parents were hellbent on me taking engineering, and also would beat me, pressurize me into getting good grades since I was little. I had 95% in 10th grade, and my downfall started from there. I understand my parents expectations in a third world country is for my own good, but now I shiver at the slightest thought of failure.
Anyways, I once again bombed my first semester, with a 6.2 sgpa out of 10. And a backlog in Maths exam. Tomorrow is my mathematics re exam, and I couldn't prepare for it at all as I got severely sick. I can't tell my parents either, I'm going to fail miserably tomorrow and I can't think of anything other than suicide.
My luck also has always been really bad. My university is a shitty one where the papers they check are so fucking random. My friends passed in maths despite having less studied than me. I know someone who got a 7.0 sgpa despite not studying at all. The checkers may sometimes grant marks based on how many pages you filled, and this 7.0 friend of mine filled entire answer copy with 9th grade formulas.
Because of overpopulation, academic failure is a huge setback as your opportunities to get a job is nearly zero. Once you graduate, your failures haunt you forever.
