cats333
sleepy
- Aug 10, 2023
- 116
i dont remember when my last post on here was. i was so sure i would be dead a year ago, and i was too depressed to attempt (if that even makes sense). so i ended up pulling through, but my way to cope has been bulimia. its never been this bad. never. my teeth are rotten and i can't digest food anymore, my throat is painfully inflamed every day to the point that its given me mia cheeks.
theres an upside though, its causing me to have small moments of passing out/being exhausted physically, probably from fucked up potassium and sugar levels in my blood, and i can feel death coming. i feel it. its so close. im so excited. even months ago, despite being suicidal, i was never quite this happy to go. im so ready, i feel so happy when i think about passing from this disorder. im so ready to go.
i dont know if it counts as suicide if all im doing is just allowing myself to ctb without doing anything to stop / get better but here we are i guess.
theres an upside though, its causing me to have small moments of passing out/being exhausted physically, probably from fucked up potassium and sugar levels in my blood, and i can feel death coming. i feel it. its so close. im so excited. even months ago, despite being suicidal, i was never quite this happy to go. im so ready, i feel so happy when i think about passing from this disorder. im so ready to go.
i dont know if it counts as suicide if all im doing is just allowing myself to ctb without doing anything to stop / get better but here we are i guess.