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Samuel

Samuel

Wise
Apr 25, 2018
243
Anyone else in the same boat? Being sober isnt so bad only because I'm on venlafaxine, a great drug. However it does not solve my problems. It only makes it easier to cope with them. I do not cope. I choose death.
 
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time2go

Student
Mar 5, 2019
126
I drink alot at night and on weekends, it makes me feel better but it's not a solution. When I'm at work and sober I just feel miserable and completely disconnected.
 
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Samuel

Samuel

Wise
Apr 25, 2018
243
I drink alot at night and on weekends, it makes me feel better but it's not a solution. When I'm at work and sober I just feel miserable and completely disconnected.
I'm drinking right now. I feel at peace with my suicide at the moment.
 
DrownedOctopus

DrownedOctopus

Experienced
Mar 2, 2019
246
I used to do the same, heavily through high school. I don't remember a moment being sober honestly through those years, it's a wonder I graduated.
 
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GeorgeJL

GeorgeJL

Enlightened
Mar 7, 2019
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Psychedelics might help you. Don't know if venlafaxine would interfere with them or not.
 
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AhG

AhG

La vie est tout sauf un rêve
Jan 24, 2019
313
I do somewhat oxy and Xanax. I don't ever drink anymore, because it would make me want to call wife, I don't want to wake up the next morning with regrets.
 
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Samuel

Samuel

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Apr 25, 2018
243
I do somewhat oxy and Xanax. I don't ever drink anymore, because it would make me want to call wife, I don't want to wake up the next morning with regrets.
Ha lol
 
TheGoodGuy

TheGoodGuy

Visionary
Aug 27, 2018
2,999
Am drunk right now, I get anxiety from Cannabis now although I used to smoke 100g of hash a month as a teenager.
 
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namelessX8

Student
Feb 22, 2019
111
Anyone else in the same boat? Being sober isnt so bad only because I'm on venlafaxine, a great drug. However it does not solve my problems. It only makes it easier to cope with them. I do not cope. I choose death.
Well I'm in a similar position to you. I'm on venlafaxine and olanzapine. I cope with meds and speed/md.
 
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TheGoodGuy

TheGoodGuy

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Aug 27, 2018
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Anxiety goes away if you keep smoking.
I am sure it will, but I get more anxious than when I was a teenager back then it was just kind of a buzzing feeling in my muscles now it feels like straight up anxiety it sucks!
 
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namelessX8

Student
Feb 22, 2019
111
Olanzapine... Hmm I have some too!!
yes antidepressants alone don't supress my suicidal thoughts, regardless of whether it's an SSRI or SNRI. I guess my head is too fucked. Also need an antipsychotic to get any sleep whatsoever.
 
Samuel

Samuel

Wise
Apr 25, 2018
243
yes antidepressants alone don't supress my suicidal thoughts, regardless of whether it's an SSRI or SNRI. I guess my head is too fucked. Also need an antipsychotic to get any sleep whatsoever.
This is a tough question to ask, but why are you suicidal?
 
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namelessX8

Student
Feb 22, 2019
111
This is a tough question to ask, but why are you suicidal?
because I don't enjoy anything. I've spent all my adult life at university and I'm fed up of it. Can't imagine having fun doing anything in the future. Also I have body dysmorphic disorder. Also, suicide solves all problems (in my opinion).
 
Samuel

Samuel

Wise
Apr 25, 2018
243
because I don't enjoy anything. I've spent all my adult life at university and I'm fed up of it. Can't imagine having fun doing anything in the future. Also I have body dysmorphic disorder. Also, suicide solves all problems (in my opinion).
BDD can go away.
 

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