Venting Im ending it tomorrow

[longlifetolive]

I cant take this suffering any longer every fucking day something happens to fuck me over so bad. Im so tired of this, tomorrow is the day. I have planned everything and am ready to go. Anyone have any ideas on what i should do on my last day on earth. I want to make it special.

 

[Rose Mine]

Do something you enjoy for your last day. For me, I want to go to a cat cafe so I can spend time with a bunch of cats. Is there something that always bring you joy?

 

[longlifetolive]

Do something you enjoy for your last day. For me, I want to go to a cat cafe so I can spend time with a bunch of cats. Is there something that always bring you joy?

not quite sure. I just feel so numb nothing brings me happiness anymore. The things that used to have slowly faded away.

 

[Mr.Black]

Dunno bruv, but I gotta tell you that the last time I tried to off myself I was as calm as my local river. At the moment you seem to be a little agitated so I reckon it's not the best idea to make such a decision right now. No matter what you decide to do, I would say you shouldn't have any regrets. If you ever wanted to tell someone something, make something known, or simply DO something, now's the time. Leave this place without looking back, without any regrets.

 

[DarknessWave]

For the last day you could do anything really, like watch you're fav show or go on a walk if u want. It's really up to what you want to do on your last day. Good luck and hope you find the peace that you've been looking for!

 

[longlifetolive]

At the moment you seem to be a little agitated so I reckon it's not the best idea to make such a decision right now. No matter what you decide to do, I would say you shouldn't have any regrets. If you ever wanted to tell someone something, make something known, or simply DO something, now's the time. Leave this place without looking back, without any regrets.

Thanks mate. This has really helped me.

 

[Persik]

Since you are about to die, and as I understand it, you have nothing to lose, try to do two things: 1) start a conversation with any random person of your choice, sitting on a bench or waiting for something, so that he is ready for a long dialogue, and talk to him about topics that interest you - only rationally, as etiquette requires. That's it, spontaneously. It may not work the first time, but the attempt should end in success.
2) Before preparing for suicide, or before committing it, write down and read this carefully: "Lord! Your name is Love: do not reject me, the lost one! Your name is Strength: support me, exhausted and falling! Your name is Light: enlighten my soul, darkened by worldly passions! Your name is Peace: calm my restless soul! Your name is Mercy: do not cease to have mercy on me"
I don't think it matters to you what you do if you're going to die, so here's my recommendation.

 

[longlifetolive]

1) start a conversation with any random person of your choice, sitting on a bench or waiting for something, so that he is ready for a long dialogue, and talk to him about topics that interest you - only rationally, as etiquette requires. That's it, spontaneously. It may not work the first time, but the attempt should end in success.

This is very interesting and a good idea! Ill try it

 

[Persik]

This is very interesting and a good idea! Ill try it

I'm glad you liked it, but hey, you forgot the second part))) It will only take a few minutes of your time. Quite important. However, it's not for me to tell you what to do. I wish you all the best.

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand feeling so tired of it all, I hope you find the peace from suffering you search for, I wish you the best.

 

[JesiBel]

I'm so sorry life has pushed you to this point. I'd like to enjoy the sun and nature one last time, listen to the birds, take a walk, breathe fresh air. Hugs to you, I hope you can find peace. And if you're not ready, don't worry; it's okay to reflect and take your time.

 

[OptingOutSmiling]

Sorry for where you find yourself today. It should be something for you, and only you. Can you remember the last time you smiled? I'd say, think back to that time, and do something similar to make you smile again. No matter how small, for me it would be a walk or run somewhere, finding the nearest piece of green like a park with trees, maybe a river if the beach is too far. Feeling the wind and the sun, looking at the moon and the stars, remembering the good times. And if the smile helps your tomorrow, remember it's okay if you wanted to smile some more, or feel it again the next day. Sending you love for calmness and special moments to come your way.

 

[Ligottian]

Looking at the weather forecast for my region, a tornado might end it for me tomorrow. Oh well, better that than to survive with no shelter. That would definitely force my hand as far as CTB.

 

[twilightSparriw]

Do something you enjoy for your last day. For me, I want to go to a cat cafe so I can spend time with a bunch of cats. Is there something that always bring you jo

Looking at the weather forecast for my region, a tornado might end it for me tomorrow. Oh well, better that than to survive with no shelter. That would definitely force my hand as far as CTB.

That's sort of romantic… i want that

Do something you enjoy for your last day. For me, I want to go to a cat cafe so I can spend time with a bunch of cats. Is there something that always bring you joy?

Cat lovers

I cant take this suffering any longer every fucking day something happens to fuck me over so bad. Im so tired of this, tomorrow is the day. I have planned everything and am ready to go. Anyone have any ideas on what i should do on my last day on earth. I want to make it special.

I cant take this suffering any longer every fucking day something happens to fuck me over so bad. Im so tired of this, tomorrow is the day. I have planned everything and am ready to go. Anyone have any ideas on what i should do on my last day on earth. I want to make it special.

It's hard to imagine being that tired and suffering and ending it all and still have the lust for life and energy for that 'last special day'… i admire that. The best of luck on the little journey you got ahead of you…

 

[twilightSparriw]

Dunno bruv, but I gotta tell you that the last time I tried to off myself I was as calm as my local river. At the moment you seem to be a little agitated so I reckon it's not the best idea to make such a decision right now. No matter what you decide to do, I would say you shouldn't have any regrets. If you ever wanted to tell someone something, make something known, or simply DO something, now's the time. Leave this place without looking back, without any regrets.

Beautiful writing

 

[Eedrah]

lots of really good advice here!
thanks for starting the thread longlifetolive
maybe you should hang out here and do some more writing and/or reading

 

[Freebandzgang]

lots of really good advice here!
thanks for starting the thread longlifetolive
maybe you should hang out here and do some more writing and/or reading

unfortunately he is gone to a better place now.

 

[niamharinafan]

unfortunately he is gone to a better place now.

thoughts on my new song bluddawg

 

[Persik]

This is very interesting and a good idea! Ill try it

Hello, how are you?

unfortunately he is gone to a better place now.

are you absolutely sure he did it?

 

[Freebandzgang]

are you absolutely sure he did it?

Yes, he passed away last night. I worked with him, and we talked quite a bit. a couple of days ago, he showed me this website (that's why I'm here now). This morning, I found out he had passed when he didn't show up for work. My manager got worried, called the cops for a welfare check, and they found him. He was a good person. Now I plan to ctb because i feel so much guilt for letting this happen

 

[Persik]

Yes, he passed away last night. I worked with him, and we talked quite a bit. a couple of days ago, he showed me this website (that's why I'm here now). This morning, I found out he had passed when he didn't show up for work. My manager got worried, called the cops for a welfare check, and they found him. He was a good person. Now I plan to ctb because i feel so much guilt for letting this happen

Sorry to hear that, really... But look at the thread, isn't everyone here who didn't try to talk him out of it guilty of that? It's not up to me to decide, of course.

 

[ForeverCaHa]

Yes, he passed away last night. I worked with him, and we talked quite a bit. a couple of days ago, he showed me this website (that's why I'm here now). This morning, I found out he had passed when he didn't show up for work. My manager got worried, called the cops for a welfare check, and they found him. He was a good person. Now I plan to ctb because i feel so much guilt for letting this happen

I'm sorry you had to experience that. I've lost someone to suicide too, which is what has pushed me to seek out this site. The guilt sets in and rots you from the inside out. It's impossible to describe the feeling, it's just pain. Feel free to DM if you need someone to talk to!

 

[Freebandzgang]

Sorry to hear that, really... But look at the thread, isn't everyone here who didn't try to talk him out of it guilty of that? It's not up to me to decide, of course.

But i knew him in real life, I knew that he was hurting. I could have helped him. But i respected his choice. Now that he is gone I feel so much guilt. I could have done so much to help him.

 

[Persik]

But i knew him in real life, I knew that he was hurting. I could have helped him. But i respected his choice. Now that he is gone I feel so much guilt. I could have done so much to help him.

Yes, I understand. Honestly, I don't even know what to say. But I hope that this pain will not be so strong for you. It was his choice, after all, not yours.