Help I'm feeling too bad to sleep, could someone chat with me for a moment?

[Manaaja]

I tried mental health chat this evening but there were too many people, I waited for three hours and then it shut down for the night before I could get in. I'm having really big troubles with my awful family.

 

[timf]

Family problems can suck the life out of you. If it is possible you might try isolating yourself and take a warm bath, watch a favorite movie, read a familiar book, or some other indulgence that can insulate you from other people's influence.

You will have to deal with them eventually, but for now tranquility is a better survival strategy. You may wish to research setting boundaries as well which can be a useful tool in dealing with family issues.

 

[Manaaja]

Family problems can suck the life out of you. If it is possible you might try isolating yourself and take a warm bath, watch a favorite movie, read a familiar book, or some other indulgence that can insulate you from other people's influence.

You will have to deal with them eventually, but for now tranquility is a better survival strategy. You may wish to research setting boundaries as well which can be a useful tool in dealing with family issues.

Thank you for helping! I'm just feeling too angry and sad. I feel like I don't want to do anything. As if there was a huge rock on my lungs that prevented me from breathing.
I have already wasted one paper roll wiping my tears. I feel too powerless. As if my mother controlled everything in the world and I was powerless against her.

Other people, they have friends or girl/boyfriends or siblings or cousins or coworkers etc. to help them. But I have none. So when my mother says "You don't have any rights!" and my dad and brother are there agreeing with her, I'm one person against three, and I feel like I'm too alone and powerless to stand up against them. How can I defend myself against three people? I know I make posts here, posts telling others to stand up to their parents, to move away from their parents, to tell their parents to fuck off, but ironically I'm too weak to do that myself.

I used to have a good psychologist and nice personal helpers who defended me, so I could say (using made up names) "Tim and Anna say I'm right and I'm allowed to do X and they also say that you are wrong and that it's very mean of you to do those things you do". But now it's:

Mother: I'll euthanize your dog.
Me: You can't euthanize my dog! That's against the law and you don't have my permission!
Mother: I don't need to care what you say! If I want the dog dead, then I'll kill her. You are my child, you have no right to speak against your mother,
Me: I'm already almost 30! I'm an adult! I have a right to take care of my dog!
Dad: Shut up idiot or I'll call the cops to shut you up! Get lost and never show your face here again!
Me: Brother do something! Please, help me!
Brother: Shut up idiot and listen to your mom!

So yeah. That's the problem. Mom plans to kill my dog, a dog that is legally mine, without my permission, and my whole defends my mother and tells me to shut up. They always defend her. Her word is law.

If I never had to meet my mother again I'd be free. Free from her tyranny. I hate her. And I'll never forgive her for murdering a dog that belongs to me.

We scheduled a leg surgery for the dog that was supposed to be soon but my mom canceled it without my knowledge or permission.

But you are right. I should go take a shower and maybe I'd watch a movie in Oculus but I'm crying too much and the Oculus would get wet. I just wish I didn't have to live this life.

I guess I calmed down a bit. But the crying just won't stop. I don't want to be worthless. I don't want to be weak. I don't want to be submissive. I don't want to be hopeless. I want the dog to live. I want to die and get isekai'd.

 

[ChobaniFlipSmores]

I tried mental health chat this evening but there were too many people, I waited for three hours and then it shut down for the night before I could get in. I'm having really big troubles with my awful family.

I'll be up for awhile. Feel free to PM me