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fckpsychology

fckpsychology

Born, survive, reproduce, die.
Dec 23, 2024
5
I have not been here for long and that I am particularly sad about. I wish I could have made friends here.

But I think my time has come. With the new executive orders coming in, as a trans man, I cannot envision myself having a chance of a happy life.

I am not sad that I am planning on doing this. I'm sad that I cannot say goodbye without my loved ones trying to stop me. I will have to disappear. I will have to stop talking to them.

The only thing I think I will regret is leaving my boyfriend behind. I'm scared of what will happen to him and if he will be ok. I don't want to leave him, but I feel like this is my end. He is the only one who understands that. I love him so much. He said he will not stop me.

I'm not super certain on my decision yet. Maybe I can remain and make some friends.

I just want to feel ok in my body… I just want to be normal. But I'm not sure if it will ever happen.
 
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APeacefulPlace

APeacefulPlace

Ape
Dec 2, 2024
171
I share some of the desires you mentioned, I'm glad your boyfriend is understanding and supportive for you . Whatever you decide, I hope you find what you're looking for. 💙
 
soonnotkoei

soonnotkoei

got my foot in the grave
Sep 24, 2024
137
I have not been here for long and that I am particularly sad about. I wish I could have made friends here.

But I think my time has come. With the new executive orders coming in, as a trans man, I cannot envision myself having a chance of a happy life.

I am not sad that I am planning on doing this. I'm sad that I cannot say goodbye without my loved ones trying to stop me. I will have to disappear. I will have to stop talking to them.

The only thing I think I will regret is leaving my boyfriend behind. I'm scared of what will happen to him and if he will be ok. I don't want to leave him, but I feel like this is my end. He is the only one who understands that. I love him so much. He said he will not stop me.

I'm not super certain on my decision yet. Maybe I can remain and make some friends.

I just want to feel ok in my body… I just want to be normal. But I'm not sure if it will ever happen.
hey, if you wanna make friends, im up.
 
Kanashii

Kanashii

Dying is your latest fashion.
Mar 16, 2023
55
I have not been here for long and that I am particularly sad about. I wish I could have made friends here.

But I think my time has come. With the new executive orders coming in, as a trans man, I cannot envision myself having a chance of a happy life.

I am not sad that I am planning on doing this. I'm sad that I cannot say goodbye without my loved ones trying to stop me. I will have to disappear. I will have to stop talking to them.

The only thing I think I will regret is leaving my boyfriend behind. I'm scared of what will happen to him and if he will be ok. I don't want to leave him, but I feel like this is my end. He is the only one who understands that. I love him so much. He said he will not stop me.

I'm not super certain on my decision yet. Maybe I can remain and make some friends.

I just want to feel ok in my body… I just want to be normal. But I'm not sure if it will ever happen.
I am here if you want to make friends, and I also totally understand where you're coming from. As someone who is gay I think if any changes were made in the law in my country I would also be strongly thinking of CTBing sooner.

I am a firm believer however in saying that time is a healer. Things can get better over time it's just how firmly you want to grasp something. As I have said I'm here if you want to talk or be friends and many others are too.

It's great that you do have supportive people around you though and that you are able to have someone around you that understands you more than anyone else.

I hope you do find peace in whatever you do decide on doing, whether that's staying a bit longer or not. We're all here and very glad that you are happy you have found this community. It really is a special place and it makes me feel safer too as it's a place I can let things out and speak my mind without having to worry about how someone might perceive me.
 

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