Lotus1818
Experienced
- Nov 4, 2019
- 248
After getting a few panic attacks and some mayor anxiety the office doctor decided to put me in this law where I was allowed to stay home for a while to recover.
Right now I stayed at home for 3 weeks. In those 3 weeks I tried to see how hanging felt like. It wasn't really an attempt but I just wanted to see how it felt.
When I was sick I found this forum and really studied the SN method. I actually have all the stuff now to CTB. But I feel a bit more at ease now. The urge to die is fading away ever so slightly.
My tramadol medicine also helps allot. It removes most of my chronic pain and makes me very happy. I also use it now as a way to reduce my anxiety.
I'm very scared for next week. But I can only try my best. And if it really sucks I atleast know I have a way out of this world.
Right now I stayed at home for 3 weeks. In those 3 weeks I tried to see how hanging felt like. It wasn't really an attempt but I just wanted to see how it felt.
When I was sick I found this forum and really studied the SN method. I actually have all the stuff now to CTB. But I feel a bit more at ease now. The urge to die is fading away ever so slightly.
My tramadol medicine also helps allot. It removes most of my chronic pain and makes me very happy. I also use it now as a way to reduce my anxiety.
I'm very scared for next week. But I can only try my best. And if it really sucks I atleast know I have a way out of this world.