AnnihilatedAnna
A Joke
- Apr 17, 2018
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This is commen I guess, getting a little better and the spiraling down all over again. Or maybe I just created the illusion that is was getting a little better, I didn't even notice until I fell down again. My first day of school was last week, summer break is over. I had this class, I don't even remember what it was but I felt like I was suffocating. We had barely started, i mean what the hell is this? I breakdown constantly again. It's quite annoying actually. I feel like everybody expects things from me and I expect thing fro my self I have these standards I expect nobody to live up to but my self. I hold the bar high for myself because I don't want to end up like my parents I think.
I need everything to stop because I can't handle all of this anymore. I need it to end. Dying seems like a good idea but I don't want to disappoint anyone. I know some people need me and some people actually like me but I don't understand why. I know my dad loves me but he doesn't really show it. I need him but every time I need him he lets me down. I don't know if that's because I set the standard too high or that it's just me. I'm just tired of trying and tired of life.
I need everything to stop because I can't handle all of this anymore. I need it to end. Dying seems like a good idea but I don't want to disappoint anyone. I know some people need me and some people actually like me but I don't understand why. I know my dad loves me but he doesn't really show it. I need him but every time I need him he lets me down. I don't know if that's because I set the standard too high or that it's just me. I'm just tired of trying and tired of life.