Venting IM NEVER TRUSTING ANYONE AGAIN!!!

[Wilt-On-High]

I am so SAD RIGHT NOW
Why did I fucking trust them????

NOW EVERYONE THAT IS CLOSE TO ME (FAMILY MEMEBERS, COUSINS AND OTHERS KNOW ABOUT HOW I WANT TO COMMIT I CANT :(
I JUST CAN'T.

The safeguarding team told on me and now someone close to me keeps mentioning how "I CuT iN tHE ToiLEts fOr AttEnTiON" and how I'm attention seeking by saying I'm suicidal

IM SO FUCKING HAPPY I DIDNT MENTION MY 4 SUICIDE ATTEMPTS AND IM TAKING IT TO THE GRAVE WITH ME.
NOW everyone knows I'm a loony and no one will look at me the same way again.
I should've just kept my mouth shut.
DO NOT TRUST THE SAFEGUARDING TEAM
THEY WILL GET YOU TO OPEN UP JUST SO THEY CAN DESTROY YOU AND TREAT YOU LIKE A DAMN CRIMINAL

THEY ARE MAKING SURE IM ALRIGHT BECAUSE THEY THINK IM GOING TO SHOOT UP THE PLACE. THEY ALSO SAID THAT SINCE I CUT AND THAT IM SUICIDAL IM A DANGER TO MY FAMILY

I AM SO DONE.
DONT TRUST THEM AT ALL. THEY ARE TWO FACED AND WILL FUCK YOU UP REALL GOOD. NO ONE WILL EVER SEE YOU THE SAME AND THEY WONT TRUST YOU. THEY ARE ALL LIARS
THEY FUCKING LIED TO ME
THEY PUT WORDS IN MY MOUTHH!!!

SOCIAL WORKER FUCKING SAYING
"THAT I DONT GET HOT FOOD AT MY HOUSE", "IF IM HAPPY LIVING IN THIS HOUSE", AND MY MUM BELIVING THE HOT MEALS THING WHEN THE ONLY THING I BLOODYSAIDWASIHADGA FUCKING LOWWMOODISHD8DBDUCUXHRHDBRURJEHARSTEGDGDYXYXHDHDYWBD

LOW MOOD LOW FUCKING MOOD????
HAH THEY PUT WORDS IN MY MOUTH LIKE IM A DAMN COCKWHOREEEEEEW SLUt WHAT THE FUCK
HUH HUH HUH?????????????

I THOUGHT WE WERE GONNA CHAT ABOUT MY LOW MOOD AND CUTTI G NOT ABOUT ME "BEING HAPPY IN THE HOUSE I CANT WITHTHESEDAMN PEOPLE I SWEAR.

I AM SO CLOSE TO JUST SPILLING THE ENTIRE TEA ON THIS WEBSITE AT THIS POINT BEFORE I CTB BECAUSE IM DONE! HAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHSHAAHHAGAGEYFUENESIJSNEHDUZYEAHHHHH MAYYYBEE I SHOULDDDD : )))))))))
THATLL TEACH EM THATLLLLLLLLLLLLL

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I'm so sorry for what you experienced. It's why I don't trust anybody. They say that they are on our side but, lets be honest, they really aren't. They are enemies to me and enemies cannot be trusted. They may say that they are here for us but the way that they coercively force people to stay alive at all costs to where even mentioning that you have a plan to get out of here causes you to be thrown into a psych ward against your will. They are not on my side and they aren't on your side too.

Also, you shouldn't tell them about this website before you ctb. It wouldn't teach them anything. In fact, it would just hinder the one and only true safe place for suicidal people because, the more people that figure out about this site, the higher chance it has of getting banned by people mass protesting against it. Right now, not many people know about this site which is why it's currently functional. I know that you hate these pro lifers and trust me when I say that I do too but, please, telling them about this site would only further the chances of this place getting banned which would mean that the only places that suicidal people can go to is to these bullshit "safeguarding teams" that you went to.

Either way, I'm so sorry for what you went through. You don't deserve to go through any of that

 

[John_Galt]

Maybe it will settle down over time, Even Fallout must cool down once hot! - Just keep your head on a swivel and prevent any undo radiation like the fallout of Chernobyl -- Damage control while painful to confront is much better then leaving it to rot...

I'm Sorry for the metaphors, But I hope things will cool down overtime for you - I think the people at the Institute probably are desensitized to all the cases they report, so this very well may be robotic routine for them and there prying/Coldness and Interrogation could be based on that, at the end of the day it is Business as usual for them - Not to say that they right in betraying your trust and the ruination of Honor... But I assume its like this quote
But for me, It Was Tuesday - TV Tropes

Chin up, Remember damage control - We don't know what others think before they say it... as Marcus Aurelies said "We suffer more in imagination then reality" this being catastrophizing what your family could be thinking and, perhaps planning to do.

Though I do not know your situation, So I very well could be wrong and for that I apologize - Sorry if this didn't make sense, Just trying to bring good cheer in an otherwise sour situation.

Keep calm, and carry on, Wilt-On-High.

 

[ma0]

This is exactly why I don't talk to these so-called "professionals." All the time you're being told "TaLkInG aBoUt It WiLl HeLp YoU" but everytime I try it's very clear that no one gives a fuck.

I've had people gossip to me before about how [X] just "wanted attention" and "wanted a shoulder to cry on about their bullshit problems" and it makes you realise how little people actually give a shit about your issues. Hell, I've been in therapy twice and nothing's changed.

I hope you're able to find your way around this and find peace, in whatever way that may be.

 

[SVEN]

I don't believe mental health professionals are our friends. (I had over 3 years with Community Psychiatric Nurses, Psychiatrist & GP practise).
They are working for a Health Board, the esteem of their peer group and their own "professional standards". This means they can lie to you, deceive you, breach every promise of confidentiality they make to you and still expect you to be totally honest with them.

 

[Wilt-On-High]

I'm so sorry for what you experienced. It's why I don't trust anybody. They say that they are on our side but, lets be honest, they really aren't. They are enemies to me and enemies cannot be trusted. They may say that they are here for us but the way that they coercively force people to stay alive at all costs to where even mentioning that you have a plan to get out of here causes you to be thrown into a psych ward against your will. They are not on my side and they aren't on your side too.

Also, you shouldn't tell them about this website before you ctb. It wouldn't teach them anything. In fact, it would just hinder the one and only true safe place for suicidal people because, the more people that figure out about this site, the higher chance it has of getting banned by people mass protesting against it. Right now, not many people know about this site which is why it's currently functional. I know that you hate these pro lifers and trust me when I say that I do too but, please, telling them about this site would only further the chances of this place getting banned which would mean that the only places that suicidal people can go to is to these bullshit "safeguarding teams" that you went to.

Either way, I'm so sorry for what you went through. You don't deserve to go through any of that

Holy moly...I did not mean it in that way with this website. I would never mention this website to them

I meant I should just not hold back and actually mention their names and stuff and expose them for what they've done wrong to me

(That didn't make sense :/

Maybe it will settle down over time, Even Fallout must cool down once hot! - Just keep your head on a swivel and prevent any undo radiation like the fallout of Chernobyl -- Damage control while painful to confront is much better then leaving it to rot...

I'm Sorry for the metaphors, But I hope things will cool down overtime for you - I think the people at the Institute probably are desensitized to all the cases they report, so this very well may be robotic routine for them and there prying/Coldness and Interrogation could be based on that, at the end of the day it is Business as usual for them - Not to say that they right in betraying your trust and the ruination of Honor... But I assume its like this quote
But for me, It Was Tuesday - TV Tropes

Chin up, Remember damage control - We don't know what others think before they say it... as Marcus Aurelies said "We suffer more in imagination then reality" this being catastrophizing what your family could be thinking and, perhaps planning to do.

Though I do not know your situation, So I very well could be wrong and for that I apologize - Sorry if this didn't make sense, Just trying to bring good cheer in an otherwise sour situation.

Keep calm, and carry on, Wilt-On-High.

Thank you mate :3
keep calm and carry on to you too :)

This is exactly why I don't talk to these so-called "professionals." All the time you're being told "TaLkInG aBoUt It WiLl HeLp YoU" but everytime I try it's very clear that no one gives a fuck.

I've had people gossip to me before about how [X] just "wanted attention" and "wanted a shoulder to cry on about their bullshit problems" and it makes you realise how little people actually give a shit about your issues. Hell, I've been in therapy twice and nothing's changed.

I hope you're able to find your way around this and find peace, in whatever way that may be.

Thank you :33

I don't believe mental health professionals are our friends. (I had over 3 years with Community Psychiatric Nurses, Psychiatrist & GP practise).
They are working for a Health Board, the esteem of their peer group and their own "professional standards"). This means they can lie to you, deceive you, breach every promise of confidentiality they make to you and still expect you to be totally honest with them.

WHAT THE FUCK. NO WAY.
I WISH I COULD JUST GO BACK IN TIME AND TELL MYSELF TO SHUT MY GOB

THAT IS HORRIBLE :(
THEY ARE HORRIBLE :(

 

[pulleditnearlyoff]

IKR! I know how you feel. They fucked me up real good also! Hate everyone and don't trust anyone anymore. Keeping my mouth shut to everybody! But they're messing with the wrong person. I'm gonna completely fuck them up!!!

 

[Wilt-On-High]

IKR! I know how you feel. They fucked me up real good also! Hate everyone and don't trust anyone anymore. Keeping my mouth shut to everybody! But they're messing with the wrong person. I'm gonna completely fuck them up!!!

It's so dehumanising...
They are like "We'll help you" or "you're so brave" and they also ask you if you're "okay" but that is because they need to know if you're a threat to others that's why they ask if you are okay....THEY DONT CARE ABOUT HOW THE PERSON IS. IM TIRED OF GETTING TREAED LIKE A POTENTIAL "SCHOOL" SHOOTER

This is why I always keep my emotions to myself, but the one time I reach out. I GET BITCH SLAPPED BACK TO LAST YEAR.

I CAN'T WITH THESE GUYS...I can't believe it....I've been betrayed.

 

[astr4]

they always say they have good intentions at heart but in my experience the fact that it's just a job for them, they can just hang up the phone and go home, they don't suffer the way we do, means i'll never trust their intentions. it always seems so easy for them to throw us under the bus because it's easier to make us our families burden instead of literally just listening to us and keeping us company which is all we need half the time. just garbage. i hate this for you. i'm sure many of us have been in similar situations too. it's just so disgusting. genuinely if they wanted us to get better they would listen non judgementally like the people on this website do. you deserve better and i'm sorry that this all happened and you were betrayed like this.

 

[Wilt-On-High]

they always say they have good intentions at heart but in my experience the fact that it's just a job for them, they can just hang up the phone and go home, they don't suffer the way we do, means i'll never trust their intentions. it always seems so easy for them to throw us under the bus because it's easier to make us our families burden instead of literally just listening to us and keeping us company which is all we need half the time. just garbage. i hate this for you. i'm sure many of us have been in similar situations too. it's just so disgusting. genuinely if they wanted us to get better they would listen non judgementally like the people on this website do. you deserve better and i'm sorry that this all happened and you were betrayed like this.

I know right....its just horrible :(
You deserve better too....
Best wishes :(

 

[cali22♡]

I feel you, I made the same mistake I told a former friend once that I was cutting myself and going to therapy and they told everyone and now they say I am seeking attention from them. I thought they were friends and you can talk to them but hey you have to let go of that thought I'm about to let go of it too.these are not people for life I'm going to be committed now and out.you are the most important person to yourself think of yourself first and then think of others


Take care

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