misanthropemurder
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- Jun 14, 2025
- 13
I'm relatively young, and I assume that my story is nothing special.
I first started SH around the age of 10, over the years it's taken more and more control over my life. At times I couldn't go more than five hours without cutting. Over the years I've also tried out different methods, burning, choking, ect.
I first tried to kill myself at 12, it was quiet, I was young, didn't think things through fully. Of course, it didn't work. But everyday I wish that it would've. I tried again at 14, this time I ended up in the emergency room. I had downed around 25,000mg of Tylenol; I fell asleep, woke up around 2am, my white body was burning. I was neauous, dazed, pulling at my skin in the bathroom mirror.
I've only been in the psych ward once, ironically, it's the happiest I've ever been.
Suicidal thoughts have hung over my life since the beginning, and im tired. I'm so tired. I burst out crying at the smallest things, I get violently angry all the time. I just someone else would do it for me, that's the thing, im such a loser that I don't even have the gut to kill myself.
I first started SH around the age of 10, over the years it's taken more and more control over my life. At times I couldn't go more than five hours without cutting. Over the years I've also tried out different methods, burning, choking, ect.
I first tried to kill myself at 12, it was quiet, I was young, didn't think things through fully. Of course, it didn't work. But everyday I wish that it would've. I tried again at 14, this time I ended up in the emergency room. I had downed around 25,000mg of Tylenol; I fell asleep, woke up around 2am, my white body was burning. I was neauous, dazed, pulling at my skin in the bathroom mirror.
I've only been in the psych ward once, ironically, it's the happiest I've ever been.
Suicidal thoughts have hung over my life since the beginning, and im tired. I'm so tired. I burst out crying at the smallest things, I get violently angry all the time. I just someone else would do it for me, that's the thing, im such a loser that I don't even have the gut to kill myself.
