z14z
Member
- May 15, 2025
- 21
it's so shit, especially this year was so heavy for me, by now when I'm writing this, the only thing that liked me, a pet bird of mine got hit by a moving fan and im seeing it dying in front of me, I reached to nearby veterinary hospitals but the doctors weren't available at this time and I have to wait for the next day to get him to a proper care, I got medicines that I can use now but he can't move his beak and it's so difficult to feed him anything, it hurts to see him dying it's the only thing that loved me, I had depression since childhood, sometimes it's so severe that I suffer so much, it's the main reason I want to die, it's so difficult to keep living, my interactions with humans are also shit, been in love with someone online, only for her to leave me for someone else then force me to self harm with her new boyfriend, even wanted me dead, after that I bought this bird to cope with my crippling loneliness but now it's dying, he liked me very much and it's so sad to see him suffering
