Venting i'm worthless

[billie]

for years i've been hurt and abandoned by people who were once important to me and i still ask myself to this day what i did to deserve this.
i think something is wrong with me.
i have borderline personality disorder and that doesn't make it any easier.
i have a strong fear of being abandoned by people who are important to me and i become emotionally dependent.
i feel worthless and i'm firmly convinced that i'm worthless.
many of my friends here in sasu tell me that they love me and that they care about me and i love them too and i care about them too but the past always catches up with me.
i just want to be asked if i'm okay and if i want to talk and maybe then i would feel less worthless.

 

[Fire&Ash]

Love you Billie I'm in the same boat. I don't know if I have bpd but i feel things way too much and I have been alone most of my life. I don't have a single friend and idk why. I guess I don't have a manual for that lol. It's crazy how we can care about total strangers but our hearts want to reach for a human connection. If only I lived in a world where I saw all of you

 

[-nobodyknows-]

No, you're not.

However, from my experience, I have found that most people don't like to hear about other people's problems, especially in regard to mental health. I don't think it's because they don't care, but rather because they feel like there's nothing they can do.

 

[soonnotkoei]

No, you're not.

However, from my experience, I have found that most people don't like to hear about other people's problems, especially in regard to mental health. I don't think it's because they don't care, but rather because they feel like there's nothing they can do.

its sad seeing so many people be like that. sometimes you just need someone to listen to you, not even do anything. i dont know what the problem is with some people, but cant blame them. some feel like they have to do something about it, and therefore decide not to listen.

 

[LowLevelChimp]

Relate entirely, the only time the people in my life respond to my greetings and texts is if they want something from me. I always tried to be helpful and people pleased because I just wanted to be liked.

I have finally accepted that people don't like me and probably never will and this year will be different I will try to be truer to myself and look after me until I get the courage to take the final trip.

I hope your friends do start to treat you with a bit more respect and you get the friendship you deserve, I wish you well.

 

[kapa]

Been there all my life. I completely understand how you feel. Everybody keep telling me that I have to love myself first and blah blah. But that never helped.