Venting Imagine getting only one shot at life and it's this

[Darkover]

What a fucking joke a bad punchline to a joke you didn't ask to be part of. It's maddening, especially when it seems like you got dealt a hand you never would've chosen. Trying to make sense of it all or to find some redeeming purpose in it can be exhausting — and sometimes, it's just not there. If there's a point to all this, it's far from clear, and that alone can feel like one of the biggest injustices.

I sometimes think the awfulness might be bearable if EVERYONE had terrible lives. But there are so many people where everything just seems to work out. They're perfectly adapted for this world. They just "get it". Their brains are wired just right to excel at something. Other people seem fated to constantly suffer, constantly fail. And the others successful lives remind you how it could be, if you'd been born smarter or better looking, born lucky. Better never to have been born really..

where some people seem perfectly equipped to thrive in life, while others just feel relentlessly held down. When you're struggling, it can be deeply painful to watch others move through life with ease — it's like they were given a key you never had, and their lives serve as a constant reminder of what you could have had, if only things were different. This divide can feel almost cosmic in its cruelty, as if some people were simply "meant" to succeed while others are fated to grapple endlessly with difficulty and hardship.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I wish that I had no shot in life and that I was never born to begin with. I never wanted life and I hate at how life has been imposed on me against my consent

 

[silentnights56]

I wish that I had no shot in life and that I was never born to begin with. I never wanted life and I hate at how life has been imposed on me against my consent

I echo this sentiment.

 

[AnderDethsky]

It amazes me how much of what is written here resonates with what I described recently here.

What's your pain really like and why did you choose suicide?

I don't think I get it, because I'm not there. I can't bring myself to commit suicide because I have nothing to do with my life, well then I'll just find something to do with my life. I want to understand why the people on here kill themselves. What's the pain like? I can't remember the last...

sanctioned-suicide.net

This very much confirms one truth — good/bad are just evaluative characteristics of relations between objects that do not exist outside the context of these relations. And therefore, depending on what each of us is, there will be those who will value their lives and love them very much, and there will be those who personally would prefer never to be born.

It seems to be so easy to come to this based on common sense and remembering that any coin has two sides, pro-lifers are afraid of this like fire, preferring to talk about the value of life always onesidedly - pro-life. Whereas in reality, even being in a falling plane without a chance of survival wouldn't be so terrible for absolute each of us. If there were someone there who would not have found a worthy place in society anyway and whom no one would ever love anyway, it would be comparable to winning the lottery for him.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I used to get so envious of people who were successful in my field. I used to envy their talent, envy their confidence, envy their connections. It was only when I actually started talking to them that I realised they were riddled with the same insecurities I was. One of the most talented people I've ever known used to spend part of her lunchtime crying in the toilets!

Other people I've worked with and lived with during a project were either working or, looking for work. They'd get home after a full day and then be on their laptops emailing companies. It was kind of humbling to be honest. Like- do I really have the right to moan about how hard freelancing is if I'm not putting in the same effort as them?

I agree that some people absolutely do have terrible misfortune in life. Maybe some do have a lot just handed to them but I don't know too many who are just breezing through. I know many more who are absolutely working their arses off for what they get.

I think some of the time, it's because we're unwilling to put ourselves through unpleasant things that other people are. That's not to say there aren't legitimate reasons for that but take this as an example: A friend of mine wants to be fit and strong but, won't exercise. When I'm forcing myself to exercise- which I utterly hate, I don't feel masses of sympathy for them if I'm honest. They are equally as capable of doing it. Sometimes, there are more things we could do to help ourselves. (Not always of course.)

What I think is much harder to judge is our mental states. Are some of us truly unhindered by anxieties and insecurities? For some, are those feelings so intense they are truly debilitating? Do some people just push through and live with the discomfort? What's reasonable to expect of someone?